Who I Am
I feel cute today.
I don't know what it is, but for some reason, today I want to dance... I've been dancing and singing and HAPPY.
I haven't really been truly happy in almost a year. Longer than that, actually. Carefree... without worry. I've gotten so many compliments on my shirt (thanks Keshia) but I feel like people are noticing because I'm carrying myself differently.
I think I know what's going on. I think that I am finally whole again. I think that I am now finally and unequivocally the person I was before I lost myself. I don't even know how much happier I can be. I haven't been all of myself since middle school - I've had masks and played parts and had moments when I swear my true self was showing through a little... but I've never ever been all of myself since maybe sixth or seventh grade. And now I'm back.
I just cannot say enough how amazed I am by what God's love has done in my life in the past few months/weeks/years. I can see, looking back, how he tried to entice me away from the life I was leading all through middle school and high school... how he tried to convince me to come back on the path, to follow him. And now, truly, after almost a year of being actively given the right direction and only half listening, I think I'm finally there.
I'm not perfect, but I am where God means for me to be. I am heading in his direction, and becoming the best version of myself while I get there. All because he loves me, and he didn't give up on me.
And that makes me want to sing and dance. So I have been, and I will. :)
Beautiful to Him - EFY 2006 "The Greatest Gift"
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So much noise
So much peace destroyed
I can hardly hear the voice
Leading me through the void
So much noise
The world's little lies
Destruction in disguise
Opportunities to compromise
To make me beautiful in their eyes
But I'm not gonna buy
The world's little lies
I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him
He's given me his trust
So I'll be strong enough
To run from a dangerous touch
I don't need that kind of love
I don't need that crutch
He's given me his trust
I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him
I know how to shine
My life's not really mine
It's not about a worldly climb
It's all about his design
So in his eyes,
I wanna shine
'Cause I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him.
I wanna live to have his peace
And feel the holiness he sees
It comes from within,
I wanna be beautiful to him.
I don't know what it is, but for some reason, today I want to dance... I've been dancing and singing and HAPPY.
I haven't really been truly happy in almost a year. Longer than that, actually. Carefree... without worry. I've gotten so many compliments on my shirt (thanks Keshia) but I feel like people are noticing because I'm carrying myself differently.
I think I know what's going on. I think that I am finally whole again. I think that I am now finally and unequivocally the person I was before I lost myself. I don't even know how much happier I can be. I haven't been all of myself since middle school - I've had masks and played parts and had moments when I swear my true self was showing through a little... but I've never ever been all of myself since maybe sixth or seventh grade. And now I'm back.
I just cannot say enough how amazed I am by what God's love has done in my life in the past few months/weeks/years. I can see, looking back, how he tried to entice me away from the life I was leading all through middle school and high school... how he tried to convince me to come back on the path, to follow him. And now, truly, after almost a year of being actively given the right direction and only half listening, I think I'm finally there.
I'm not perfect, but I am where God means for me to be. I am heading in his direction, and becoming the best version of myself while I get there. All because he loves me, and he didn't give up on me.
And that makes me want to sing and dance. So I have been, and I will. :)
Beautiful to Him - EFY 2006 "The Greatest Gift"
-------------------------
So much noise
So much peace destroyed
I can hardly hear the voice
Leading me through the void
So much noise
The world's little lies
Destruction in disguise
Opportunities to compromise
To make me beautiful in their eyes
But I'm not gonna buy
The world's little lies
I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him
He's given me his trust
So I'll be strong enough
To run from a dangerous touch
I don't need that kind of love
I don't need that crutch
He's given me his trust
I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him
I know how to shine
My life's not really mine
It's not about a worldly climb
It's all about his design
So in his eyes,
I wanna shine
'Cause I define myself and find my beauty in the light he gives
I'm refined by his divine intentions every day I live
It doesn't matter what the world believes,
Or what they say that beauty means
It comes from within,
I want to be beautiful to him.
I wanna live to have his peace
And feel the holiness he sees
It comes from within,
I wanna be beautiful to him.