I want her to know everything
So me and nikki broke up this past weekend, it has been so so rough. I've lost my love, but we are still going to be friends and i can promise there will never be a girl like her in my life again...definetly one of a kind.
But the reason I'm on here tonight is because last night Nikki called upset, upset because i with held some things about the party for Falisha on saturday. Heather was there. I didn't tell her that she was and she found out on Heather's myspace with proof of pictures. I told I didnt tell her cause i didnt want it to bother her, but it only caused her to feel betrayed cause i didnt tell her and she was hurt by it. This has been on my mind all day. I no longer want to keep things from the girl I love, especially of this nature. There has been more things that have happend involving Heather in the past couple of months, like an e-mail and phone calls, that I didnt want to tell Nikki cause i didnt want it to bother her. well not sharing information like this is as good as lieing and is dishonest. I'm going to call Nikki tonight and I hope that she'll hear me out and let me share everything that this shit with Heather has been like. She already knows that there is nothing to fear with Heather, but I need her to know that my dishonesty has been to keep her from getting bothered by something i thought i knew how to control. Its gone out of control and Heather is as good as gone from my life and Nikki will know everything so we can hopefully move from this with a stronger trust and and sense of loyalty toward our friendship and relationship in the future.
I love her and I'm not going to keep anything from her again.
But the reason I'm on here tonight is because last night Nikki called upset, upset because i with held some things about the party for Falisha on saturday. Heather was there. I didn't tell her that she was and she found out on Heather's myspace with proof of pictures. I told I didnt tell her cause i didnt want it to bother her, but it only caused her to feel betrayed cause i didnt tell her and she was hurt by it. This has been on my mind all day. I no longer want to keep things from the girl I love, especially of this nature. There has been more things that have happend involving Heather in the past couple of months, like an e-mail and phone calls, that I didnt want to tell Nikki cause i didnt want it to bother her. well not sharing information like this is as good as lieing and is dishonest. I'm going to call Nikki tonight and I hope that she'll hear me out and let me share everything that this shit with Heather has been like. She already knows that there is nothing to fear with Heather, but I need her to know that my dishonesty has been to keep her from getting bothered by something i thought i knew how to control. Its gone out of control and Heather is as good as gone from my life and Nikki will know everything so we can hopefully move from this with a stronger trust and and sense of loyalty toward our friendship and relationship in the future.
I love her and I'm not going to keep anything from her again.