school
So im back at school. It kinda sucks, im already missing home, though home isnt really that much better. I just hate how there is always something going on and if im just sitting in my room doing nothing i feel like im missing out. I just dont see the point of being here. But i have to because if i didnt i would just be home with no one. Well jim, but hes leaving next year. Theres no one i even want to see. Like alexa wanted to go visit everyone and i had no desire to do that. ppl are making plans tonight but i just want to go to bed. Its weird im sad but not. Im just numb. In a way its like i dont even want to make friends. I go out of my way to not hang out with ppl. I dont know why and i hate it but im just soooo anti social! We were all chilling in Matts room and i was like ok so im gonna go i gotta unpack, even though i had already basically unpacked. I really want to try this semester and i feel like i got off to a bad start. Im jsut too tired today. I dotn want to go through my whole college expierence counting down to when i go home. And i seriously have to stop looking at the negative in all my friends. That is just a bad habit and it makes me not like ppl that are perfectly fine. UGH! i forgot to call dr. brownstein. Knew i would, that sucks butt. Gotta go look for a job soon :( kinda happy at the same time, it will be something to do and give me money.