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Good evening,
This weekend was fairly good. I had a church retreat in Gonzoles. its near san antonio. it was lots of fun. it gave me time to think about things and play my guitar. the stars and weather out there was just amazing all weekend long. i dont understand why i always have to have a girlfriend. its like everytime i dont have one the only thing i do is look for another one. its like i have a single tract mind all the time. i wish i could just find a girl that had the same interests as me and got along with me and didnt bitch about everysingle thing, and maybe realized that i have responsability and that the world doesnt revovle around her. but thats what i get for dating a fucking freshman. they always told me not to do it and i said oh no its fine shes mature. yea gunshot to the face mature. and now it seems as if she likes matt denbigh who i consider one of my best friends. this doesnt really bother me much. he can have seconds for all i care. but oh well. i could see my feelings elsewhere. i just dont know where. i think ill just chill out and keep doing things the way i have been. ill not pursue anyone. i wish for once a girl would just like come up to me and be like hey we should hang out sometime. thad be cool. of course were not newhere near an ideal society so fuck that idea. but i think there is someone there for me. could be someone im close to. or some one i dont know that well. ill just have to see when the day comes. until then ill just live like i can and know how to.
on another note: it was kinda cool that jessie put up with my random ramblings for a couple of hours on sunday i think it was. and i just wanna thank her for that. and jessie your really easy to talk to. i like that.
pacsun hasnt called so i guess i better look for a job elsewhere. but untill then ill stay poor.
done.
searching for a cure,
CS
This weekend was fairly good. I had a church retreat in Gonzoles. its near san antonio. it was lots of fun. it gave me time to think about things and play my guitar. the stars and weather out there was just amazing all weekend long. i dont understand why i always have to have a girlfriend. its like everytime i dont have one the only thing i do is look for another one. its like i have a single tract mind all the time. i wish i could just find a girl that had the same interests as me and got along with me and didnt bitch about everysingle thing, and maybe realized that i have responsability and that the world doesnt revovle around her. but thats what i get for dating a fucking freshman. they always told me not to do it and i said oh no its fine shes mature. yea gunshot to the face mature. and now it seems as if she likes matt denbigh who i consider one of my best friends. this doesnt really bother me much. he can have seconds for all i care. but oh well. i could see my feelings elsewhere. i just dont know where. i think ill just chill out and keep doing things the way i have been. ill not pursue anyone. i wish for once a girl would just like come up to me and be like hey we should hang out sometime. thad be cool. of course were not newhere near an ideal society so fuck that idea. but i think there is someone there for me. could be someone im close to. or some one i dont know that well. ill just have to see when the day comes. until then ill just live like i can and know how to.
on another note: it was kinda cool that jessie put up with my random ramblings for a couple of hours on sunday i think it was. and i just wanna thank her for that. and jessie your really easy to talk to. i like that.
pacsun hasnt called so i guess i better look for a job elsewhere. but untill then ill stay poor.
done.
searching for a cure,
CS