lolwat another oneshot!?
Here's another short oneshot I wrote at 3am last night/morning. I don't know why I wrote it rofl. It just popped into my mind and I started writing. It's JeTi with subtle TaeNy. And I warn you, it's pretty angsty. Nothing suggestive like my last one. Rofl. Don't kill me. DX
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Just to make things easier to understand. The Italicized/Centered lines are from Sica's subconscious. Enjoy and comment~
Push
I want to forget you
Leaning against the metal guard rails that separate me from the Han River and staring out into the water is nothing new to me. The rhythmic push and pull of the tiny waves echo in my mind and take control of my body. I find myself involuntarily rocking to match the rhythm of the waves.
Me and the water. The water and me. It's all I have now. I don't think I could handle anything--or anyone--else at the moment.
I close my eyes and let the outside world fade from my mind.
"Jessica, is that you?"
As I open my eyes and turn to the source of the voice, I silently wish that that voice doesn't belong to who I hope it is.
It's her.
I stare for a minute, taking in the features of the girl I knew oh-so-well.
"Hey Tiffany." The name is nothing new to me, yet it feels wrong for me to be saying it again to her for so long. "Yeah, it's me. What brings you here?" I mask the pain I'm in with a fake smile. All the previous pain I was in has tripled after seeing her face. I came here to forget that face, forget her, but why is she here?
"Oh, I'm just stopping by. I'm actually on my way somewhere. I come here every once in a while. You know, to remember the good times."
She comes here? How come I haven't seen her? I'm here almost every day. Here to.. to...
"Yeah... remember."
I turn my head away from her face and stare out into the water, ignoring the burning sensation building up in my eyes.
Forget everything that has happened
"We used to come here all the time back then. You remember, right Jessica? We'd come here at night and stare up into the night sky and try to spell our names with the stars. Those were the days... Back before I met-"
"How is she. TaeYeon."
I put absolutely no emotion into saying it because I could care less about that girl. Why I even bothered asking about her, I don't even know. She's the reason why I'm in this pain. Why I'm alone. She took her away from me.
"Oh, she's great. We're great. I'm actually on my way to meet her right now. Oh! And now that you mention it, I better get going. It was nice seeing you again, Sica. And I hope we'll meet again real soon."
All the pain and suffering, I just want it gone
"Fany, wait."
"Hm? What's up Sica?"
I pause for a moment. I don't know what to say, but I don't want her to leave. Not again. I quickly scan her left hand and feel my heart sink at the sight. Her ring finger. Bare.
"Have a good time with TaeYeon."
She smiles that oh-so-familiar smile before saying "Thanks! You should hang out with us sometime!" before running off.
And just like that, she's gone. Something I still haven't come to terms with the first time it happened.
Staring back out into the water, I try to process all that has happened.
But all I did was remember
I lean forward on the metal guard rails, letting the silver band around my neck dangle over the waters, wondering if she noticed I still wear it.
"You're happy, right?"
Despite the fact that she is already long gone, I still wish my words would somehow reach her. I want her to know how much I've hurt, how much I still care, how everything I do is because of her.
I undo the clasp on the back of my necklace and hold it up into the sun.
"As long as you're happy, I'm willing to make a few sacrifices."
As I make away from the river's bank, I can still hear the subtle plop of metal hitting the water amongst the push of the waves. I am reminded of why I was there in the first place.
To push away the memories from my brain.
But more importantly, the love from my heart.
Remember, how I could never forget you.
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Just to make things easier to understand. The Italicized/Centered lines are from Sica's subconscious. Enjoy and comment~
Push
I want to forget you
Leaning against the metal guard rails that separate me from the Han River and staring out into the water is nothing new to me. The rhythmic push and pull of the tiny waves echo in my mind and take control of my body. I find myself involuntarily rocking to match the rhythm of the waves.
Me and the water. The water and me. It's all I have now. I don't think I could handle anything--or anyone--else at the moment.
I close my eyes and let the outside world fade from my mind.
"Jessica, is that you?"
As I open my eyes and turn to the source of the voice, I silently wish that that voice doesn't belong to who I hope it is.
It's her.
I stare for a minute, taking in the features of the girl I knew oh-so-well.
"Hey Tiffany." The name is nothing new to me, yet it feels wrong for me to be saying it again to her for so long. "Yeah, it's me. What brings you here?" I mask the pain I'm in with a fake smile. All the previous pain I was in has tripled after seeing her face. I came here to forget that face, forget her, but why is she here?
"Oh, I'm just stopping by. I'm actually on my way somewhere. I come here every once in a while. You know, to remember the good times."
She comes here? How come I haven't seen her? I'm here almost every day. Here to.. to...
"Yeah... remember."
I turn my head away from her face and stare out into the water, ignoring the burning sensation building up in my eyes.
Forget everything that has happened
"We used to come here all the time back then. You remember, right Jessica? We'd come here at night and stare up into the night sky and try to spell our names with the stars. Those were the days... Back before I met-"
"How is she. TaeYeon."
I put absolutely no emotion into saying it because I could care less about that girl. Why I even bothered asking about her, I don't even know. She's the reason why I'm in this pain. Why I'm alone. She took her away from me.
"Oh, she's great. We're great. I'm actually on my way to meet her right now. Oh! And now that you mention it, I better get going. It was nice seeing you again, Sica. And I hope we'll meet again real soon."
All the pain and suffering, I just want it gone
"Fany, wait."
"Hm? What's up Sica?"
I pause for a moment. I don't know what to say, but I don't want her to leave. Not again. I quickly scan her left hand and feel my heart sink at the sight. Her ring finger. Bare.
"Have a good time with TaeYeon."
She smiles that oh-so-familiar smile before saying "Thanks! You should hang out with us sometime!" before running off.
And just like that, she's gone. Something I still haven't come to terms with the first time it happened.
Staring back out into the water, I try to process all that has happened.
But all I did was remember
I lean forward on the metal guard rails, letting the silver band around my neck dangle over the waters, wondering if she noticed I still wear it.
"You're happy, right?"
Despite the fact that she is already long gone, I still wish my words would somehow reach her. I want her to know how much I've hurt, how much I still care, how everything I do is because of her.
I undo the clasp on the back of my necklace and hold it up into the sun.
"As long as you're happy, I'm willing to make a few sacrifices."
As I make away from the river's bank, I can still hear the subtle plop of metal hitting the water amongst the push of the waves. I am reminded of why I was there in the first place.
To push away the memories from my brain.
But more importantly, the love from my heart.
Remember, how I could never forget you.