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i don't know if it was the food i ate last night, or the disgusting glass of milk (i hate - full fat vitamin a&d - milk. 2% is quite fine with me), or the rain, or what the fuck, but i woke up around 6.48 this morning from the worst dream ever!!
i remember details in my dreams that my vocabulary won't allow me to disclose. like the soda machine was out of grape soda (how could they?!?!?), and the green, shiny bra Larry was holding.
it was like a movie, cept i don't remember how it started. i remember Larry meeting some girl named "Anna" and being completely smitten with her. she was not his type at all: super tall, super skinny, and a bitch. she was just mean. but anyways, i was trying to get him away from her (i knew she was bad news, mostly because she was keeping him from his daughter, Katelyn). he wasn't budging. he "knew" he had met the girl of his dreams. i remember going to his house which was in a really rundown part of a city, and going to his room to reason with him. he was laying in his bed which was next to a window (don't know if that's important, but oh well) and it was night time...street lights were on and he was holding anna's shiny green bra, smelling it or something. i don't remember what i said, or why he was holding me, but then anna showed up. just appeared in the bed next to his. okay this is how it was like a movie. anna, it turns out, was dead. but came back, or something. i know she had put some kind of spell on him to make him "love" her, but we all know that's impossible. you can't make someone have feelings for u. i'm not really sure what her intentions were? maybe to take him away from me, or make him miserable? anyways, after this i remember anna telling Larry they were going on a world tour thingy. not like a music thing, but to explore, and that they'd be gone for much of the winter. he was all for it, until i mentioned Katelyn. he didn't seem to know what to do, but was considering taking her with them. (i personally don't think that's a very good idea. summer would be fine, no school, but winter...that's school time - and family time - all the holidays and whatnot) then i remember meeting them at the water. i think they were leaving on a boat? i wanted one last chance to plead with him not to go, but then i just walked away. walked past a playground where Katelyn was playing, and tapped her on her head. not tapped, more like petted. and crying "goodbye, Katelyn", but she was too busy playing with her friends to respond. i don't blame her. being all of 6 years old, who would care about much more than playing? shit, being all of 24, i feel the same way. :)
i think at that point i knew it was a dream and forced myself to wake up. i remember feeling desperate in the dream to let Larry know it was a bad decision. and that feeling is still lingering...
more often than not, i look for meaning in my dreams. but, for this one, i'm gonna take what Larry says to heart. "they're just dreams"