why is it...
that everything shitty that could happen to a person is happening to me...which i wouldnt mind...if it wasnt all happening at once...and on finals week...when I have strep throat...when i'm so close to my wits end that i dont even want to scrapbook...i just want to sleep all the time...sleep everything and everyone away.
i seriously need my own place. once the toyota is fixed, maybe i can get my own apt.
i missed band banquet...i was trying to find someone who would take me. it really made me realize how much i have grown up. i was grown up before...and now this...working full time, going to school full time, being a full time friend/girlfriend/daughter...
man i wish sometimes i could go back to senior year...i would do everything different. I would tell everyone i loved them more often...not just when they're doing stupid stuff. I would NOT DATE BEN. I would have spent more time with my best friend if i would have known i would hardly ever see him. I would have been a better thespy president and made the banquet better. I would have cried harder at the last performance of Beauty and the Beast and not have given a shit about my makeup. I would have hugged Elisa more. ha. I would have gone away to college...I would have actually auditioned for Sea World so I could have gotten the Werewolf Lady instead of bowlegged mummy...I would have kissed Tony...girlfriend or not.
but i didnt...so now i reflect and try to help the younger ones...
am i really wanted? am i being taken for granted? am I the girl thats always "there"?
ugh...
aloha
Sara
i seriously need my own place. once the toyota is fixed, maybe i can get my own apt.
i missed band banquet...i was trying to find someone who would take me. it really made me realize how much i have grown up. i was grown up before...and now this...working full time, going to school full time, being a full time friend/girlfriend/daughter...
man i wish sometimes i could go back to senior year...i would do everything different. I would tell everyone i loved them more often...not just when they're doing stupid stuff. I would NOT DATE BEN. I would have spent more time with my best friend if i would have known i would hardly ever see him. I would have been a better thespy president and made the banquet better. I would have cried harder at the last performance of Beauty and the Beast and not have given a shit about my makeup. I would have hugged Elisa more. ha. I would have gone away to college...I would have actually auditioned for Sea World so I could have gotten the Werewolf Lady instead of bowlegged mummy...I would have kissed Tony...girlfriend or not.
but i didnt...so now i reflect and try to help the younger ones...
am i really wanted? am i being taken for granted? am I the girl thats always "there"?
ugh...
aloha
Sara