my first aa meeting.
i made my first aa meeting tonight.
it was much less scary than i thought, and i really liked the people there. it was a women's only group.
i even shared.
the only thing i didn't like was the group praying - mainly because i don't believe in repeating the same prayers to god over and over again. i understand the serenity prayer is more of a mantra for yourself than a prayer, but the lord's prayer is different. that was jesus showing us what to pray about, not telling us to repeat his words over and over again. he said to "pray this way." and he often prayed NOT using those words. it was just to show where our priorities should be. my dad grew up catholic and did the whole, prayer repetition thing - idk, it's just something i feel strongly about. i don't feel comfortable repeating the lord's prayer, and i won't be able to do it. it goes against what i believe.
hopefully that's all right.
they were so nice. i think this will help me so much. i think it'll restore some of my lost faith in humanity. it's so hard for me to believe that there are other people who are in the same boat - this is what i need. i need to see this, and hear this. it's great.