AA.
i've finally made up my mind to go ahead and join an aa group. there's one near my house on saturday mornings and tuesday nights that's women only, called "safe & sound." i'm very scared, but i can't go on like this. it's fucking awful.
i bought two books on the 12 steps - one is about the 12 steps for women, and one is a workbook that goes through all 12 steps with questions, exercises, etc., for the addict and coaddict.
i just don't know what to think. i want to stay and write more here, but my husband is drinking and watching t.v. and i can't think when the t.v. is on.
all i know is, if i don't stop this, i am going to spend my life exhausting myself. and never actually do any of the things i want to do.
i am powerless over my addiction. my life is unmanageable.
there's an addiction living inside of me. it's stronger than i am. there's a monster, a demon, who has been silencing and abusing me for years. this addiction is my friend, in a way, but it's a friend who is not helping me. it's a friend who is ultimately hurting me. i can not fight this demon off on my own. as long as it exists, it exists as a being stronger than i am. the harder i try to fight it, the more i keep myself from doing the other things in life that i want to do.
i bought two books on the 12 steps - one is about the 12 steps for women, and one is a workbook that goes through all 12 steps with questions, exercises, etc., for the addict and coaddict.
i just don't know what to think. i want to stay and write more here, but my husband is drinking and watching t.v. and i can't think when the t.v. is on.
all i know is, if i don't stop this, i am going to spend my life exhausting myself. and never actually do any of the things i want to do.
i am powerless over my addiction. my life is unmanageable.
there's an addiction living inside of me. it's stronger than i am. there's a monster, a demon, who has been silencing and abusing me for years. this addiction is my friend, in a way, but it's a friend who is not helping me. it's a friend who is ultimately hurting me. i can not fight this demon off on my own. as long as it exists, it exists as a being stronger than i am. the harder i try to fight it, the more i keep myself from doing the other things in life that i want to do.