i need and hug, and more... i need that special someone

[sobbingxdestiny]

Valentines Day is coming... I’m not looking forward to it. Seeing so many couples around saddens me. I don’t want to get sad but I just want to have what they have. Envy should never be apart of my vocabulary but I do envy those who have someone special. I want someone special. Today he walked right pass me and did even glance at me once. That hurt me so much. But why last week did he walk the long way to his class and walked with me? I’m confused. Clarrissa told me that everything will work out. Guy have a tough time showing their feelings so they play it off cool. Also she said I deserve the best and if he doesn’t show me the best I should forget him. I’m just too in like with him to forget him. Maybe over time things will change. But this is what I told her. “"we accept the love we think we deserve."
I don't think I deserve love or any feelings from the guy I like…..”
I’m dreading February 14th. I'm dealing with cuddling deprivation too. I just need a hug, and more...