i've been dreaming about it for days but i don't ask why
MY LIFE IS TOTAL CHAOS!!!! i forget EVERYTHING, and i feel like i'm constantly being pulled in 50 million directions at once....i'm so glad i don't have children, i really don't see how mothers not only take care of their children, but also work, and sometimes go to school. my 5 classes are overwhelming me, and working 30 hours a week at pcf is not only tiring, but also unbelievably emotionally draining for a desk job, and now i'm tutoring alex. then there's church, which really is only 1 night a week, but it still takes up precious studying time. and on top of it all, i want to see my friends. and i want to help out maxine. maybe i should stop eating, anorexia might save me some time, and money too. i'm skipping class today so that i can spend more time w/ alex on math, and b/c there's 2 pprs due, one that's long and a major grade, that i totally forgot about until i was in my last class realizing i have test in there on friday. so now tonight and tomorrow i have to study for environmental science (i'm praying the book is easy to read), write a 1 page reaction paper, write a 3-5 page essay on 3 writings i've barely read about sarcophilia and sarcophobia, teach alex percentages (this seems easy but after talking w/ her about them an hour she failed her quiz, and this is after my mom spent time w/ her on them last week), go to work for 6 hours, get applications at at least 4 restaurants, and go to church at 5pm tomorrow. i need a miracle. and a new brain that knows something about theology and the environment. wait...why the hell am i wasting time updating my lj?