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So what's going on in my life, you ask, livejournal friends? That is a difficult question.
It's the second half of senior year. This is supposed to be good stuff. Total freedom from responsibility you say? Non-stop party? Wow, count me in, especially after a winter break where the sit-in-front-of-the-computer-and-work-on-college-apps to have-fun ratio was way too high.
So much for that (so far at least).
Instead there's been as much work as ever, and the only good part of anything is that I don't have to really stress about grades. Still, when you're used to getting certain grades, you won't allow yourself to drop off too much. And no non-stop party. Everything pretty much like it's always been, except a little more difficult lately.
I don't know why, but I've been feeling particularly introverted lately. I haven't been quite as eager to hang out with friends in general, and the prospect of going to college and meeting hundreds of other young people isn't exciting me particularly. I feel like all my emotions have been dulled, sort of- I'm not feeling happiness or sadness or any other brand of passion like I usually do. I consider myself a pretty emotional person, but not lately. That's been troubling.
To tell you the truth, I'm still content with my life. The last couple times I've seen Meg, the Posse, and RL friends, I've enjoyed myself. I still smile, and laugh. And I still love.
The hard part is never making a decision, but living with the decision you made. Sometimes when I'm wandering through the halls at school, I wonder if I've made the right decisions. I don't know why, but I doubt myself most when I'm at school. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing the right things, but I certainly can't say that I'm sure.
Oh well.
It's the second half of senior year. This is supposed to be good stuff. Total freedom from responsibility you say? Non-stop party? Wow, count me in, especially after a winter break where the sit-in-front-of-the-computer-and-work-on-college-apps to have-fun ratio was way too high.
So much for that (so far at least).
Instead there's been as much work as ever, and the only good part of anything is that I don't have to really stress about grades. Still, when you're used to getting certain grades, you won't allow yourself to drop off too much. And no non-stop party. Everything pretty much like it's always been, except a little more difficult lately.
I don't know why, but I've been feeling particularly introverted lately. I haven't been quite as eager to hang out with friends in general, and the prospect of going to college and meeting hundreds of other young people isn't exciting me particularly. I feel like all my emotions have been dulled, sort of- I'm not feeling happiness or sadness or any other brand of passion like I usually do. I consider myself a pretty emotional person, but not lately. That's been troubling.
To tell you the truth, I'm still content with my life. The last couple times I've seen Meg, the Posse, and RL friends, I've enjoyed myself. I still smile, and laugh. And I still love.
The hard part is never making a decision, but living with the decision you made. Sometimes when I'm wandering through the halls at school, I wonder if I've made the right decisions. I don't know why, but I doubt myself most when I'm at school. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing the right things, but I certainly can't say that I'm sure.
Oh well.