Dude.
So tomorrow, right after school, I'm leaving (on a jet plane).
...Don't know when I'll be back again...
Actually, that's a lie. I'll be back Christmas Eve.
It's just me and my mum. We're going to Berlin and Leipzig. It's going to rock. It'll be freakin' cold... But it will still rock.
And the best part of all? I only have to spend 3 days with my grandma. Hee hee hee hee hee.
I'll miss veil though.
God I love that kid.
He's sweet.
An adorable little nerd.
But also a hot and sexy rock star.
I spent time with him last night. I wont be able to see him again until after Christmas. Because my grandma will hate him, and make her visit here HELL (at least, worse than USUAL) if she meets him. Why? He has long hair. Oh yea. That's it, baby. She'll despise him and make our lives a living hell for everyone associated with him because he has long fucking hair. Fucking insane.
And so I hung out with Veil last night at Pam and Jon (and Andy's) new place. And it sucked. A lot. I mean, I'm extremely disappointed. I just wanted to spend some time with him, alone, bonding... And no, not so we could fuck... Honestly, I just wanted to cuddle and have his focus on me, and vice versa. But noooooo. He didn't insist, really, he didn't seem to care one way or the other... But he just didn't understand why I wanted to spend time ALONE with him. As I wont be able to spend any time with him for a while. And so my night sucked. We barely cuddled or talked at all. And that's the note I have to leave on..
Why can't he understand these things?... Is it really so difficult?
Am I being unreasonable?
God, I don't know. Seriously.
But I can't deny that it sort of hurts that he can't understand some things like this.
Whatever. I just really wanted to spend some time with him. Just him. No distractions. I didn't want to be social! I just wanted to see him. I admit, generally, I do want to be social. I usually love being social. But I, like he, have times when I just want to chill.
"It's not like you have to impress anyone here."
Well no, sweetheart, I realize that at Pam's I can relax. It's not that. I still have to be respectful, I still can't relax the way I can in my own environment. It's inevitable. I don't know Pam and Jon that well. I know I hadn't seen their new place yet, and that I should get to know them better because they're like Veil's family. But for the last time I get to spend any time with him before Christmas, I would like not to have to worry about those details. That's okay, right?
I'm overreacting, I know. But I also know I'm a little right about this. I should talk to him about it. It's important that he understand my overanalyzation.
Right?
Oh well. I'll see you all after the holidays.
Germany is going to kick ASS, mothas!
-Love and Such-
...Don't know when I'll be back again...
Actually, that's a lie. I'll be back Christmas Eve.
It's just me and my mum. We're going to Berlin and Leipzig. It's going to rock. It'll be freakin' cold... But it will still rock.
And the best part of all? I only have to spend 3 days with my grandma. Hee hee hee hee hee.
I'll miss veil though.
God I love that kid.
He's sweet.
An adorable little nerd.
But also a hot and sexy rock star.
I spent time with him last night. I wont be able to see him again until after Christmas. Because my grandma will hate him, and make her visit here HELL (at least, worse than USUAL) if she meets him. Why? He has long hair. Oh yea. That's it, baby. She'll despise him and make our lives a living hell for everyone associated with him because he has long fucking hair. Fucking insane.
And so I hung out with Veil last night at Pam and Jon (and Andy's) new place. And it sucked. A lot. I mean, I'm extremely disappointed. I just wanted to spend some time with him, alone, bonding... And no, not so we could fuck... Honestly, I just wanted to cuddle and have his focus on me, and vice versa. But noooooo. He didn't insist, really, he didn't seem to care one way or the other... But he just didn't understand why I wanted to spend time ALONE with him. As I wont be able to spend any time with him for a while. And so my night sucked. We barely cuddled or talked at all. And that's the note I have to leave on..
Why can't he understand these things?... Is it really so difficult?
Am I being unreasonable?
God, I don't know. Seriously.
But I can't deny that it sort of hurts that he can't understand some things like this.
Whatever. I just really wanted to spend some time with him. Just him. No distractions. I didn't want to be social! I just wanted to see him. I admit, generally, I do want to be social. I usually love being social. But I, like he, have times when I just want to chill.
"It's not like you have to impress anyone here."
Well no, sweetheart, I realize that at Pam's I can relax. It's not that. I still have to be respectful, I still can't relax the way I can in my own environment. It's inevitable. I don't know Pam and Jon that well. I know I hadn't seen their new place yet, and that I should get to know them better because they're like Veil's family. But for the last time I get to spend any time with him before Christmas, I would like not to have to worry about those details. That's okay, right?
I'm overreacting, I know. But I also know I'm a little right about this. I should talk to him about it. It's important that he understand my overanalyzation.
Right?
Oh well. I'll see you all after the holidays.
Germany is going to kick ASS, mothas!
-Love and Such-