How can I ever know if I'm the right person in this world?

[soapygirl]

I feel like I've been in some kind of fog for a really long time. I could blame it on losing my job last month, whcih totally sucked. However it's not like this was my dream job or anything and to tell you the truth I didn't really get along that well with my boss and I'm certain that feeling was mutual. Still at least it gave a shape to my days and the means to persue other interests. But if i really wanted to be totally honest with myself I've been in this fog since I left college and had no idea what to do with my life. I've floated from temporary job to tempoary job and spent a lot of time dithering around on the internet whilst being unemployed and I'm just not any closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life. Right now I'm leaning towards going back to school so I can weather out a few years of this economic hurricane in the relative safety of academia but I'm still torn about what I want to study. I keep thinking about library sciences since I'm a girl who loves to read and encourage others to do so but it's rather scary thing to jump into having zero experience working in a library.

Somtimes i really do want a magic remote to fast foward me through all this confusion but then I'd miss out on so many wonderful things small and large.

One of the large wonderful things is that I'm going to become an aunt. For those who know more about this situation know it's one full of worry and concern for mother and child alike but still, I can't help but feel hope and excitement for them both. And on a more practical level it should satisfy my baby lust for at least a few more years.