Life
This week was a soul searching week for me. As I sit and watch my mom lay in a hospital bed, I realize that life is short. Why go on and carry grudges and hate people. This is a time in my life where I should embrace the things around me and take nothing for granite. Today your here, tommorrow your gone. I dont want to think bad things about people. People change. You just have to accept them for who they are. If you dont like the things that they are doing or did, dont be apart of it. Don't judge, try to have a possitive view for them. Everyone has problems, and worries. You can't just worry about yourself when you take on the title of a "friend" or "lover". Its not an easy thing to do when you live in a selfish world. When everyone is out just for themselves. From this point on, I'm washing away all my hatred and grudges. I don't want to die thinking about who I fought with or who I hated. Life is to precious. You have to learn to let things go, and it will be easier on you conscience. Life is hard, people make mistakes. Its part of human nature. Forgive and forget. Let things go. Be a grown up. Take life by the fucking balls and squeeze man. There are so many doors to open and adventures to explore. Don't dwell on the past, look into the future. You will get so much futher if you dont let things that happened bother you. I need to clean up my life. I let partying get the best of me. I had to be at the bar every weekend thinking I was missing something. I don't have to get intoxicated to have a good time. Im funny, witty, smart, pretty and a damn good time to be around. I don't need to clean out the bar for fun. I can be myself and have fun. If you dont know who you are and where your going in life, how do expect to get there and make something of yourself? When You fall, pick yourslef up and dust off. Tomorrow is new day and new beginning. There will always be a place in someone's heart for you.