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Well I had an appointment with my new therapist today. I really like him a lot. He's super easy to talk to, he's calm and laid back. He sat in a chair and put his feet up on another chair and it made me laugh. The thing is, I go to school with his wife's kid from a previous marriage haha, so I'm not sure if they like...talk about his patients or not. I sure hope not :P. He was really supportive of the guitar idea, and said that if I could get it sooner than Christmas that that'd be great. Basically to just start it as soon as possible. I think that it could really help a lot, to just kinda get stuff out there, but then again kinda distracting me. It all just depends on what I'd play.
I spent the afternoon/early evening with my boyfriend and his mom. We watched Fred Claus, but I fell asleep haha. I woke up at like 7:01 or something and I thought it said 1 haha so I got kinda freaked out for a second. I feel really tired though, still. Plus I took my sleeping pill a bit early, so that's made me quite tired. I feel real loopy when I'm on them haha, because my eyes will be all droopy and I can't really walk in a straight line :P. I'm not sure if that's normal or if I should ask about that. I guess I will thought, just to be sure. I have an appointment with my medication doctor person either tomorrow or next Wednesday, so that's good. I need more sleeping pills (I have one left), so I don't know what I'm going to do for refilling it.
School went good today, again. I wasn't there in the morning because of my appointment, but I was there for 3rd hour, but I didn't have to dress for gym so I was happy :D. For Speech class, we have been doing demonstration speeches (speaking of which, if anyone has an idea I could do for mine, please leave a comment :D) and one of the demonstration speeches was about swimming, so we had to go across the street to the junior high (the high school doesn't have its own swimming pool). It was funny because the one kid was kinda (okay really) tubby and the other guy was like really skinny and muscular kinda, but not in a gross way haha. I was super glad they didn't wear speedos though hahaha!
Lol this guy that I used to go out with is being a douchebag. He was like a real asshole after I broke up with him (for liking my BEST FRIEND), but it went like off and on. We'd go from texting and being friendly or whatever to not texting at all. Then this past time we were texting, my boyfriend was uncomfortable with it, so I stopped texting him. I didn't really want to text him in the first place, so it wasn't really any problem haha. He stopped trying to text me for a while, but recently we've been sitting at the same table (he's friends with two girls that are friends with the people that sit at my table, and he doesn't really have any other place to sit lmao), so he's starting to text me again haha. I just ignore him :P.
Gah, last hour study hall was terrrrible. First, the fire alarm went off and it's REALLY loud in the cafeteria, where I have study hall, and it scared the absolute SHIT out of me lol. We went outside in the freeeezing cold lol and waited for a while and went back inside, just like a normal fire drill or when someone is stupid and pulls the alarm. But when we got inside, the alarm kept going off! We didn't keep going outside though, thankfully. I guess there was a glitch or something but it was annoying as hell lol. There was a pause between two alarms and I said "It's not over yet" and right after, the next alarm went off haha. I did that a couple times like right on, it was great :P.
But, when the fire alarms were finally over, I started writing because my friend that sits at my table wasn't there today. I guess I really shouldn't have done that =\. I started writing about "theexbestfriend" and I was like almost to tears. I just really don't understand... Nothing brought it on. We had no fight or anything and just out of the blue he told me he didn't want to be friends anymore... It hurt so bad. But the thing is..., I've been wondering recently if it's because I love him like a brother or if I was starting to fall IN love with him. Which if that's the case...that's bad. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. I would never ever leave him, but I would just feel terrible if I knew what this feeling was definitely.
I guess I'm done rambling. I'm looking forward to tomorrow because 1. in Speech class, someone's demonstrating how to make smoothies and we get to have one!!! (I absolutely love smoothies!!!!!) and 2. If I go and get through the day, my parents and I (maybe my sister) are going to rent a movie to watch and my mom CANNOT fall asleep lol (she falls asleep through movies a lot). Plus, she's going to get me the twilight book :]. I really am enjoying it, it's wonderful. I thought maybe it'd be one of those overrated things like the Jonas Brothers (absolutely HATE them), the Harry Potter series, or Lost, or Supernatural, Smallville...etc etc etc lol (sorry if you're a fan of any of these things. I respect your opinion and choice :]). There's a lot of things I think are overrated :P.
Welp, I guess that shall be all. I'll go read some Twilight before I have to go to bed. <3