rough one.

[soaddicted2you]

Wow, today has been one of those days. It's been 3 years since Emily and Will's death and yet everything about that day is still so clear in my mind. I think about where i was, the conversations with my friends, the expression on emily's moms face. All of it hit me harder today than it has since that day. I don't know what it was, but it hurts...and it hurts bad.

Maybe its thinking about my other friends or people in my life and thinking about how bad it would hurt to lose them, and how scared i get sometimes realizing how precious life is. Thinking about how much their deaths affected everyone around us and how it changed my perspective on life, Whatever it is its just been one of the roughest days i've had in a long time....

"Homesick"

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow