“Insecurities are about as useful as trying to put the pin back in the grenade”
So...today i came across two interesting things.
1. Strip aerobics
2. I'm very insecure about other girls and my boyfriend.
Number one:
I went to go to spinning this morning at 8 am but people failed to tell me that the schedule changed and it was no longer spinning, but instead it was cabaret conditioning...aka strip aerobics.anyway although i was like what the crap i cannot do this..it was actually amazing and i loved it! :) it was a bit more provacative then i thought it would be...quite the experience, but i rate it a 10 out of 10.
Number two:
So keith and i have been together for almost 9 months now...crazy how fast time flies when you're in love :) For most of the time we've been long distance which sucks, but i haven't really had an issue with him and other girls until recently. So he went to OC and his ex-gf goes there...he is still pretty good friends with her which bothers me...i don't know why i'm bothered by her so much. the other girls he's dated i don't mind about..but her..she just bothers me. After being upset some because he was texting her a lot one night i realized i needed to get over it..but its hard.
He's so attractive and has such a great personality that it isn't surprising he would meet a lot and become friends with a lot of girls. The problem is that he's such a genuine guy and girls love that...the things i was attracted to are what other girls will be too. I'm clearly just insecure about myself and i just get scared that he'll find something better and leave. Lately things have been a little rough with talking about spiritual things...and i get scared that he's just going to give up and find something closer and better in OC.
I need to get over this insecurity...but how. ugh. i think it's going to take more confidence in who i am and how i look to ensure that I don't get paranoid and freak out about who he hangs out wtih...i reall try hard not to freak out..but deep down i get scared cause there are better things out there than me...
all i know is that i love him so much..and i don't know if my heart would recover from being broken from him..he has just totally caught me off guard and stolen my heart :)
anyway. enough for tonight. too much thinking is hurting my brain.
Verse for today:
What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things.
Philippians 3:8
1. Strip aerobics
2. I'm very insecure about other girls and my boyfriend.
Number one:
I went to go to spinning this morning at 8 am but people failed to tell me that the schedule changed and it was no longer spinning, but instead it was cabaret conditioning...aka strip aerobics.anyway although i was like what the crap i cannot do this..it was actually amazing and i loved it! :) it was a bit more provacative then i thought it would be...quite the experience, but i rate it a 10 out of 10.
Number two:
So keith and i have been together for almost 9 months now...crazy how fast time flies when you're in love :) For most of the time we've been long distance which sucks, but i haven't really had an issue with him and other girls until recently. So he went to OC and his ex-gf goes there...he is still pretty good friends with her which bothers me...i don't know why i'm bothered by her so much. the other girls he's dated i don't mind about..but her..she just bothers me. After being upset some because he was texting her a lot one night i realized i needed to get over it..but its hard.
He's so attractive and has such a great personality that it isn't surprising he would meet a lot and become friends with a lot of girls. The problem is that he's such a genuine guy and girls love that...the things i was attracted to are what other girls will be too. I'm clearly just insecure about myself and i just get scared that he'll find something better and leave. Lately things have been a little rough with talking about spiritual things...and i get scared that he's just going to give up and find something closer and better in OC.
I need to get over this insecurity...but how. ugh. i think it's going to take more confidence in who i am and how i look to ensure that I don't get paranoid and freak out about who he hangs out wtih...i reall try hard not to freak out..but deep down i get scared cause there are better things out there than me...
all i know is that i love him so much..and i don't know if my heart would recover from being broken from him..he has just totally caught me off guard and stolen my heart :)
anyway. enough for tonight. too much thinking is hurting my brain.
Verse for today:
What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things.
Philippians 3:8