Up and down, up and down we go.
I hate mood swings! But that's my life and I just have to adapt. Well, not really. It's pretty fucking exhausting to go from one extreme to the other and I guess I'd better get some help. I don't want to see a therapist, though. No matter how good it might do me... I just cannot talk to strangers about personal shit I have tried to forget, I don't really even talk to the people that are "close" to me. Ugh, whatever. Antidepressants will do just fine...
Anyway, I hope it gets better.
I'm planning on doing a lot of jogging and exercising once I have nothing better to do, but let's see about that. I have also planned on reading a lot, not to mention expressing myself a little more through art. Which basically is, painting, sketching and photographing. It all sounds really good but I never really do much more than angst, watch tv and browse the net. ;( I am really looking forwards to seeing what will happen when I finally have nothing but time.
Oh, did I ever mention I am going to Riga with my sister in June? That should be nice, if only someone lent me a little spare money to spend on the trip. :D
Sometimes I wonder why I have to be such a drama queen... because, well, sometimes it might go a little over the top. And although I am having fun, no one else is. Actually, it annoys the fuck out of everyone. (Daaaamn, I just want a little attention.)
And a confession, I should have paid my rent yesterday but since I haven't got even half of it on my bank account, I went shopping today. No, I didn't spend that much! I only got a white hand bag for 55 euros and two cheap books. :) (I will eventually pay the rent, I'm just waiting for dad to send me some money. :D) However, from now on, I can only buy myself food.
Anyway, I hope it gets better.
I'm planning on doing a lot of jogging and exercising once I have nothing better to do, but let's see about that. I have also planned on reading a lot, not to mention expressing myself a little more through art. Which basically is, painting, sketching and photographing. It all sounds really good but I never really do much more than angst, watch tv and browse the net. ;( I am really looking forwards to seeing what will happen when I finally have nothing but time.
Oh, did I ever mention I am going to Riga with my sister in June? That should be nice, if only someone lent me a little spare money to spend on the trip. :D
Sometimes I wonder why I have to be such a drama queen... because, well, sometimes it might go a little over the top. And although I am having fun, no one else is. Actually, it annoys the fuck out of everyone. (Daaaamn, I just want a little attention.)
And a confession, I should have paid my rent yesterday but since I haven't got even half of it on my bank account, I went shopping today. No, I didn't spend that much! I only got a white hand bag for 55 euros and two cheap books. :) (I will eventually pay the rent, I'm just waiting for dad to send me some money. :D) However, from now on, I can only buy myself food.