I had a lot of those feelings of "I can't do it" with Arthur. I was so on top of things with Peter's birth. With Arthur it was similar - if I got in certain positions the pain was really bad, and in others I didn't have anything at all. I thought if it were "real" labor they wouldn't stop, so I didn't stay in painful positions. I learned later that all of the painful positions were ones that could have helped speed things up (since my labor ended up being 31 hours) by getting him anterior. But oh well. Now I know.
I got the poop feeling at the very end, but I didnt believe i was anywhere close, so I tried not to push because I didn't want to poop. It was only when I totally gave up and let myself go (about this time we were in route to the hospital) that Arthur crowned and I realized that feeling was a feeling of progress and I should have gone with it.
I kept thinking about you, and it's dumb, but I kept comparing and thinking that if you could have all the homebirths, then why was I giving up and transferring. I guess in a way reading that you had the feelings of "I can't do it" too makes me feel better. Labor is hard!
drug free labor is hard no matter how you look at it, and is especially discouraging to have a long labor after a previous shorter one.
transferring isn't failure, sometimes it's really needed. no matter how many successful births I have behind me I always face each new upcoming birth with questions of "what if?" because you never know what will happen. I consider myself really lucky that nothing ever has, but still think I'm pushing my luck each time I face another. if a certain percent of births need medical attention, then the more I have, the higher the odds of one of mine needing it, no? to be honest, I'm terrified to ever do this again.
i was terrified of the transfer as well, at least before labor started. now that ive done it, and i know at least of one hospital that was pretty cool with my wishes, i dont feel nearly as frightened by it, should i ever have a pregnancy that requires hospital intervention.
I got the poop feeling at the very end, but I didnt believe i was anywhere close, so I tried not to push because I didn't want to poop. It was only when I totally gave up and let myself go (about this time we were in route to the hospital) that Arthur crowned and I realized that feeling was a feeling of progress and I should have gone with it.
I kept thinking about you, and it's dumb, but I kept comparing and thinking that if you could have all the homebirths, then why was I giving up and transferring. I guess in a way reading that you had the feelings of "I can't do it" too makes me feel better. Labor is hard!
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transferring isn't failure, sometimes it's really needed. no matter how many successful births I have behind me I always face each new upcoming birth with questions of "what if?" because you never know what will happen. I consider myself really lucky that nothing ever has, but still think I'm pushing my luck each time I face another. if a certain percent of births need medical attention, then the more I have, the higher the odds of one of mine needing it, no? to be honest, I'm terrified to ever do this again.
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