I am vindicated{iam selfish i am wrong i am right i swear im right}
i got my dress and shoes today.
dress= that black one from hot topic with white polkadotts shoes= those ones that lite up when u stomp from journeys. oh ya nad i got some different make up and some shitt from victorias secret.
Had conferences too. My dad ruined my night. I finally relized..just how much i hate him. im NOT kidding or being like how regular teenagers say it or ANYTHING,im serious as i could ever get. Everything he does and has done to me my mom my brother,especially when we lived with him.His attitude to everything and his response to everything. Yeah..he is one of the things that made me cut.(last night was my first in 3 weeks yay for me!) Idc if u think its sad. I had/and stil ldo ,so much anger i couldnt do anything with it. I wanted to hurt him so bad or anyone..but i couldnt,so i hurt myself.(that isnt the only reason i cut tho).
He doesnt get it,he never will.Trust me,me nad my mom have told him and he doesnt listen.Family conseling didnt help jack shitt etiehr.
anyways..i talked to jasper/clayton for like 45min. on the fone today .
2morro is here soon thank god,getta be with 2 of the people who prolly make me the happiest-who knos- and rick too! i get my sunglasses back from brians..i miss him haha,
Yeah justin told me that ian changed like how he looks and idk..i just miss ian terribly ,idk why but i do so much.
i gotta go call justin now bye.