JAN. 8TH MY BIRTHDAY!
Well i woke up around 11:30 this morning and laid in bed thinking about everything thats going on in my life untill like 1:00.I feel like i have lost most of my friend. like i haven't talk to any of them really this two weeks we have been off i miss them all.I miss layla,emily,matt (well i don't really think he likes me in the first place but yeah),anth,beth,ryan,joshie,and erik. i miss them all very much like i really don't want to go back to school but i do just to see them and give themm all hugs like i really really love them all there the best they have been there through pretty much everything. Layla is the one i really miss since i tell her everything and like she is the greatest friend in the world.yeah so i feel like crap and this week i have felt ugly i don't know why i just do.i saw emily the other day but we really did really talk.hmm im talking to sami and i just hate it when she talks about drinking.i feel like i have changed so much like i stop drinking i stop smokeing weed. YEAH that right i used to fuckers got a problem deal with it.but yeah i changed alot i lost alot too.evern erik thinks im not cody anymore and thats not good.So im sorry everyone i just can't please everyone at the same time. so yeahumm i suck and i know it.well 6 days untill my birthday i hope someone will remember my sweet sixteen.well right now im talking to sami still and i pissed her off for saying how i feel. i hate it when i get yelled at for how i feel! i fucking mess up like this all the time im never telling anyone how i feel again EVER!well yeah im going to go bye everyone.I know i leave you with a song.
You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
(Chorus)
I guess it's okay I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time.
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
(Repeat Chorus)
Nicer than that (2x)
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you (4x)
(repeat chorus)
Nicer than that
I guess it's okay I puked the day away. (Nicer than that)
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.(Nicer then that)
And if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer!
Nicer!
i love sami!
You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
(Chorus)
I guess it's okay I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time.
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
(Repeat Chorus)
Nicer than that (2x)
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you (4x)
(repeat chorus)
Nicer than that
I guess it's okay I puked the day away. (Nicer than that)
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.(Nicer then that)
And if you want me back,
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer!
Nicer!
i love sami!