i guess promises are better left unsaid

[so_much_love]

today was so crappy. i woke up at 11:00 ate breakfast. and was quite content sitting on the couch watching 7th Heaven. when my mom decideds to come change the channel to tennis when she's on the computer in the other room not even watching tv??? yeah don't get that. so since i'm too lazy to go to another tv i sat there and watched it for like 45 minutes till she finally got off the computer. she just sits at the computer and talks on the phone for 3 hours. so i got ready and washed some clothes. made scrambled eggs for lunch at like 3!! then orientation. blah i hate that school with a passion. but looks like i'm stuck with it. my parents are so ahhh. so i come home and lay down on the couch with my cat and watch tv. my dad comes down and is like get up we're going out to dinner. so i'm already in a bad mood and really didn't wanna go. but since my dad's so cool he decides to start arguing with me. so i go get a sweatshirt and come back downstairs where my mom starts going off about my mood and attitude lately. and how i have this plan to be miserable so they'll let me go to stonebridge. um right no clue where she got that from. so for like 10 minutes she's yelling at me about how this plan isn't working and all this crap. so we just start arguing and fighting and ahhh i was crying and all this stuff. so then my dad suddenly becomes all nice and is giving me a hug and telling me he understands. but still there's no stonebridge. cause i dont wanna go there for the right reasons. yeah whatever. they don't know anything i tell them why and all but they don't believe me they think i'm lying because they don't trust me. i hate it. i'm not a bad kid at all. teagan will atest to that. and they just think i'm like this horrible kid who just ahh i don't know. so yeah whatever i'm crying my makeups everywhere and we have to go out to dinner and of course 3 amigos the one place i'm definately not in the mood for. so yeah that wasn't too bad. because for the next 2 weeks i have to have a good attitude or i'm gonna be grounded. i'm gonna be like josh and use song phrases. so i guess... just paint a smile and pretend.

this weekend should be sweet. suffolk! that's the only place i feel accepted and wanted and i can be myself and yeah. besides with teagan and kelsey but yeah.