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I am so tired.. busy so busy.. busy busy.. busy and then busy and busy!!
Today I went to work after not sleeping well.. then I did some stuff then went to my grandpa's grave for the first time since the last time I was there.. and that was the day of his funeral.. and like I thought I would.. I cried.. I miss him so much.. so much.. all I want to do is sit down and have another grandpa talk with him and have him tell me jokes that make me laugh and then him to tell me that he loves me.. AUGH I hate it.. ok I am done writing that stuff.. but yeah so I went there then I went to see my grandma and I stayed over for a while and we had supper together and talked and stuff.. I havent seen her in a while too.. blah..
My grandma gave me some pictures back of me and grandpa that she had we used in a collage.. I fucking miss him augh I cant take it.. I hate it so much.. but what can I do.. NOTHING!! There is no one I miss more than him.. and it sucks when sometimes I think yeah I wonder what grandpa will say about this.. but I cant talk to him about it.. he was so young.. I dont understand why.. but I will accept I guess..
I am over tired I think and being too emotional right now possibly so I wont be..
I am happy Kelly has a better chance of staying here..
I am happy I dont have to get up early to go to work.. I have to work at 2 then I think I am hanging out with my friend Abbie..
But I should go and do some work.. a lot to do..
I am going to go..
Peace
Today I went to work after not sleeping well.. then I did some stuff then went to my grandpa's grave for the first time since the last time I was there.. and that was the day of his funeral.. and like I thought I would.. I cried.. I miss him so much.. so much.. all I want to do is sit down and have another grandpa talk with him and have him tell me jokes that make me laugh and then him to tell me that he loves me.. AUGH I hate it.. ok I am done writing that stuff.. but yeah so I went there then I went to see my grandma and I stayed over for a while and we had supper together and talked and stuff.. I havent seen her in a while too.. blah..
My grandma gave me some pictures back of me and grandpa that she had we used in a collage.. I fucking miss him augh I cant take it.. I hate it so much.. but what can I do.. NOTHING!! There is no one I miss more than him.. and it sucks when sometimes I think yeah I wonder what grandpa will say about this.. but I cant talk to him about it.. he was so young.. I dont understand why.. but I will accept I guess..
I am over tired I think and being too emotional right now possibly so I wont be..
I am happy Kelly has a better chance of staying here..
I am happy I dont have to get up early to go to work.. I have to work at 2 then I think I am hanging out with my friend Abbie..
But I should go and do some work.. a lot to do..
I am going to go..
Peace