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I havent written in here for a while.. it has been a long hard sad week.. I havent even been to class in like two weeks that is bad.. but I was sick and then last Sunday my Grandpa died.. it has been really hard.. I had never went to a wake or a funeral before.. I love my grandpa so much he is one of the best people I know and the best grandpa I could have asked for.. I am very sad he died but happy for him too because he is in a better place out of pain now and he is not suffering like he was in the hospital.. he hated being there.. I read at his funeral.. my Grandma asked me too and it made her very happy and I did it for him too and the rest of my family because they wanted me to.. it was hard but I did it.. I didnt have to read a lot so that is good because I would have cried up there because I was balling my eyes out before I went up.. I didnt know I was going up right then.. My cousin Kim read too and Bryan.. i think Bryan had the hardest one.. he read the remembrance and a lot of us helped to right it and it was so good and I dunno if I would have been able to read it.. but he doesnt want us to be sad and I will cherish all the times I had with him.. and not forget what he taught me.. I love you Grandpa.. and I wrote him a letter too and put it in his jacket.. my cousin Jess did too.. and my cousin Jackie put a picture of her kids there.. everyone is being strong and it is hard.. and it is going to be very different when Christmas comes.. and Thanksgiving soon.. my grandma wants to just cancel them.. I dont blame her it is sad and hard.. but I dunno I am sure she is very overwhelmed right now.. we always go over her house for that.. and now I dunno.. my grandpa was so young too but he was so sick.. I didnt expect it and I dont even know if it has fully hit me.. and I think it is because I just couldnt even believe it at first and like didnt beleive it.. it all happened so fast and he was 65.. he was so healthy going for walks every day.. long ones too.. he loved walking..
I was at work and I was getting out at 2 and going to see him.. well my mom came in at 1 and was like we have to go grandpa is not doing good.. he had been sleeping all week on a respirator.. they kept sedating him.. and then I left work and my mom told me he wasnt going to make it.. his body was shutting down on him.. he told us he didnt want to be on life support.. so we all went there and it was very hard.. I held his hand.. I wonder if he knew we were all there.. I kind of think he did.. I cried so much.. then the priest came.. Father Roger.. and went in with my dad, uncle, aunt, and grandma.. and then he died after they took the respirator out not very short after.. he was really sick.. so many people went to his wake.. people my grandma didnt even know.. everyone loved him and knew him.. he touched so many people.. even some lady went he met walking..
My Papa who is my mom's dad is not doing very well.. he is the one on oxygen tanks.. he has emphazema.. it just all sucks.. he needs to go to the doctors but he wont.. even his mom is still alive, my great grandma.. she is like 93..
I love my family so much..
But.. I dunno anyways..
Last night I went to Uno's with 11 people.. I dont feel like writting everyones name but it was fun and it was fun to all hang out again I missed everyone.. a lot were home this weekend from school..
I am going to go..
Peace
I was at work and I was getting out at 2 and going to see him.. well my mom came in at 1 and was like we have to go grandpa is not doing good.. he had been sleeping all week on a respirator.. they kept sedating him.. and then I left work and my mom told me he wasnt going to make it.. his body was shutting down on him.. he told us he didnt want to be on life support.. so we all went there and it was very hard.. I held his hand.. I wonder if he knew we were all there.. I kind of think he did.. I cried so much.. then the priest came.. Father Roger.. and went in with my dad, uncle, aunt, and grandma.. and then he died after they took the respirator out not very short after.. he was really sick.. so many people went to his wake.. people my grandma didnt even know.. everyone loved him and knew him.. he touched so many people.. even some lady went he met walking..
My Papa who is my mom's dad is not doing very well.. he is the one on oxygen tanks.. he has emphazema.. it just all sucks.. he needs to go to the doctors but he wont.. even his mom is still alive, my great grandma.. she is like 93..
I love my family so much..
But.. I dunno anyways..
Last night I went to Uno's with 11 people.. I dont feel like writting everyones name but it was fun and it was fun to all hang out again I missed everyone.. a lot were home this weekend from school..
I am going to go..
Peace