so fucking emo.
Hello.
School gets out today. I'm up all night working on my history final. I hope I do well.. the history of pot is a big subject with so many ways to look at it. I have like.. 3 hours and 5 minutes to finish.
I cut open my dads hand the other day with a butcher knife. he had to get three stitches.. but it was an accident, i swear.
I'm fucking grounded all of June. My father found 12 grams or so on me like last week.. then I got searched at school the next day and they found some cigarettes. So I got arrested and suspended.
I dont know if I want to move back to oregon or not, I cant make up my mind, I know anyone who reads this will probably say stay in San Diego.. its all so foreign to me though, I've put off doing EVERYTHING all this year so I dont even know where anything is. I want to at least go back for a little bit to visit. I miss everyone who makes me feel so loved and welcome. I want to be with people who love and care about me.
fuck- I dont even know who that is anymore. I feel so lost.. confused.
but I have no goals. what do I want to accomplish this summer?
I know I need to loose weight. blah. Everytime I eat I feel so fucking guilty and lazy, I cant concentrate myself on one thing for longer than half a minute.
I am also trying to cut the word "fuck" out of my vocabulary.
Ending this on a good note!
ASHLEY is here!! Oh my oh my. She is definetly coming over this weekend. I miss her so so much.