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Life is so full of ups and downs.... its like, no wonder im depressed, everytime something good happens... it always eventually ends.
i know thats a really really pessimistic view but oh well.
so i dont think bryans going to be able to come up and see me, cuz colins mom needs colin to help move and shit.. blah blah blah.... so im basically never going to see him again. Which is pretty sad... and like whats the point of even talking to him anymore, he lives 300 miles away, it does make me happy to hear his voice but i cant see him, or touch him, or like be with him, its just hard.. and then to know that hes probably off with other girls, which i cant be mad about because its not like were dating, and plus im not necessiarily staying away from guys either... but the point is, we could never be together so why drag it out any longer....... i should have left it in hilton head.... but it was more than just a hook up, otherwise i wouldnt think about him as much as i do, or get excited when he calls me...
but.... whats up must come down, or so they say, so me and bryan is coming down. and im back to reality....... that my life sucks, and is completely boring as shit..
and ericas going to college, once shes gone ill have like basically no one that i can talk to about everything, we can still talk on the phone but its not the same shes gonna be in fuckin california... i cant just go over to her house when im sad or happy or anything, i dontknow what im gonna do.
im going to miss bryan a lot, even though he pisses me off sometimes, i hate how that works ugh.