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ugh.i'm home taking care of my baby bro.i can't go out today fuck!!!.i'm bored out my mind..god dam jhgsjaghuigfhghui i'm so tired of this shyt.if you only knew you'll understand buddy.
i finished school today!!!!!11111 finally.it feels good..hehehehe hahahaha.my friends (you could call them that i guess) were crying.i've realize theres really no one trusting in this world.i've seen it throught the year of school.i really was like amazed but people mouths and oh too much drama and backstabbing.i'm glad i left that fucking school.no fucking summer school!!!!! yeah man..i rule yeshhhhhhhhh
past weeks like the usual seeing my boyfriend.thats good.same same crying too much.i miss someone badly and oh god i wish i could write to him and call him but i can't but i'm going to try.i'm not going to mention his name...but its O.P.D.i never thought i would say goodbye to him.its not easy forgetting someone who you trusted so much and cared for you since your parents weren't there for you.i miss talking to him about my problems and crying on the phone with him.he picks me up and takes me to places.he always had time for me like no other person had ever in my life.i need to talk to him so bad and see him...hes the only person in the world who i could ever trust and believe in...hes was like my brother (also my father) i never had someone so close to me like that...so close he was close to my heart.i'll never forget him in my life.he'll always remain in my heart like he was before.i cry at nights for him because of the times we spent together and like we talked about everything and like just hanged out.i need him now so much.
yes....awww!! *starts to cry honestly* anyways *sniffes* i'm so mad today.over something so little but oh well i'll get over it like so fast.tomorrow i have plans and hopefully it won't change as it is.my dad needs to talk to me tonite supposely.i wonder why but i don't care i give up with my parents already...i'm tired of living like this so much i'm fed up.i haven't been sleeping lately or eating oh well i don't care its thier faults nto mines.
i'm going to sleep and just clean my room or something i'm bored.oh yeah i was suppose to go to the KEG WITH RENA tonight...oh shyt...i have to call her to say sorry or something because i didn't call her earlier..later have to call someone.