Aug 27, 2006 09:07
I apologize to everyone. But I'm doing it again. Getting depressed and anti-social and afraid of big groups of people who all know each other but don't really know me. I stayed in my room all night last night during the ice cream social. I would have been okay if only like, twenty freshman came - or if they came and went and they all rotated. But there were a lot of them and I felt claustrophobic. Then Graham came over and I started crying... for no reason... Then everyone started the after-party upstairs and I just didn't feel like going so I got even more upset. And then Graham wanted to leave for whatever reasons that Graham always wants to leave.
So I stayed here, alone, dreaming weird dreams and tossing in my sleep.
I dreamed it was opening night of a play on my high school stage and I hadn't even looked at the script. Guess that means I should obtain the sheet music for I Dreamed a Dream for auditions before it's too late huh? After all, auditions are in two days and as it turns out I'm a fucking loser.