May 09, 2006 01:53
my parents kicked me out.
im living in gainesville now.
i cant help but feel this issuch a bad thing.
i hate that i cant finish school this year.
maybe i can make it back for finals.
then come back here.
im going out looking for a job tomorrow.
my friends mom gave me 50 bucks.
im going to buy a bike and some clothes.
a blanket too.
todays journal entry:
“ill leave with nothing, because nothing makes me happy.”
this is it. im out. they kicked me out of the house again. i left pretty bad, they were hitting me and i was fighting back,but fuck im out!..i thought i would feel guilty for longer, but its more like i have this restriant blown. im finally free.
so far its a comepletely obsurd time. a friends mom tried to convert me to some sort of cult. she kept preaching christianity and trying to get me to rub holy oil on myself. she smoked me out too. her stripper daughter brought chronic. i watched american history x with 2 old friends. im going to gainsville and i feel free. i have my life availiable. i want to work to pay for where i live and finish school. then go to a college and do all the things i dont want to do..just so i can say i did it all when im doing what i want.
i want to get every angle in the world.
“you know i had a horrible machine sucked at me”
‘well you kept going they sucked the life out of me, they sucked the flesh out of me. they sucked the body off of me.’
“you know what was most disturnbing..they made me go back with a cup of my own urine”
“she was really nice”
i wish i knew for a fact i could plant my feet on the ground. i mostly just want to prove to my family i can do it. call them up and tell them i finished school. that i saved up for college. and that i was happy.
sup
“bling!”
“i could hear her saying bling in my head”