those days...
so sometimes i have one of those mildly depressive days. its like so much is going on in my head and then i feel tired and overwhelmed with everything. and i want the hubs to make it better but i know [he's just a boy]. i feel insignificant. fat and ugly. lazy. like my life is crap. all that i've worked for and toward really isn't good enough. i feel like a bad mother. its hard to say all the things i feel and why i feel this way. because i myself don't even know. but i have no choice to move forward. and i wonder if all the things i've chosen are the right things for me. i don't want to live one of those unrich meek lives where i'm doing things that i have to do instead of things i want to do. i don't want my life to be a chore, a job...i want it to be the greatest experience.
on another note. i can't believe how ungrateful some people are. they are given so much and can't seem to grasp that they are so lucky in this world. i do not for once take my family for granted. or my mother in law. i know she works her ass off to pay the bills and put a roof over our heads. and although i can't give much, i offer to give her something. and still her low life ass kids have the nerve to make stupid ignorant comments which show me how out of control they are. they will grow up to be nothing. not cuz i say so but because that's how their future looks with the crap they pull now.
on another note. i can't believe how ungrateful some people are. they are given so much and can't seem to grasp that they are so lucky in this world. i do not for once take my family for granted. or my mother in law. i know she works her ass off to pay the bills and put a roof over our heads. and although i can't give much, i offer to give her something. and still her low life ass kids have the nerve to make stupid ignorant comments which show me how out of control they are. they will grow up to be nothing. not cuz i say so but because that's how their future looks with the crap they pull now.