I'm wandering this house, like I've never wanted out- this is as social as I get now.
Im gonna be completely honest, as much as I miss all the people at college, I was kinda nervous bout them coming home this weekend. I thought that it would either jus be akward, or that now that things had started to settle in back at home, their homecoming would disrupt that flow... but i'll tell you, the minute i walked toward that fence and saw the smile on all their faces, i knew i had never been more wrong about anything in my life...I felt so comfortable sitting there at bakers square that night, knowing that i would never be surrounded by better company. For all those that i doubted, I am sorry. I miss you all more then ever, and seeing you guys this weekend only makes me realize that all the more.
On a less depressing note, Homecoming was a blast. Stephanie was an Awesome date! Im really happy i went.
It was the most casual pre-dance thing ever. After pictures and eating, we wound up playing bags (me and steph beat nancy and cody!!!), and tossed the frisbee around. Our whole group, aside from cody and nancy, was comprised of people that i really didnt know well, or at all, and it was alot of fun getting to know them better, and see them outside of school/band. Then bowling afterwards- almost disastrous. We werent allowed to enter since we were under 18, we assumed cause there were strippers, but to our dissapointment, it was only because of curfew. After some talks and such, we were allowed in. Had fun there too. We not only tried to see who could get the best score, but also who get throw the fastest since it clocked your throws. James pwned with a 37.8 mph. After that we all went back to our respective places to sleep.
On an entirely different note, while watching football today for 6 hours, i started to think while my mind wandered back and forth between the game and my thoughts. And though i know, i should be able to be happy without a 'special someone' or whatever you want to call it,and i know i can be .. but theres sometimes when i cant jus help but feel lonely, ya kno? And like its not so much lonely in the boyfriend/girlfriend way, it lonely in the way that im jus missin someone that i can jus hang out with who really understands me... yea, maybe thats what i need.
On a less depressing note, Homecoming was a blast. Stephanie was an Awesome date! Im really happy i went.
It was the most casual pre-dance thing ever. After pictures and eating, we wound up playing bags (me and steph beat nancy and cody!!!), and tossed the frisbee around. Our whole group, aside from cody and nancy, was comprised of people that i really didnt know well, or at all, and it was alot of fun getting to know them better, and see them outside of school/band. Then bowling afterwards- almost disastrous. We werent allowed to enter since we were under 18, we assumed cause there were strippers, but to our dissapointment, it was only because of curfew. After some talks and such, we were allowed in. Had fun there too. We not only tried to see who could get the best score, but also who get throw the fastest since it clocked your throws. James pwned with a 37.8 mph. After that we all went back to our respective places to sleep.
On an entirely different note, while watching football today for 6 hours, i started to think while my mind wandered back and forth between the game and my thoughts. And though i know, i should be able to be happy without a 'special someone' or whatever you want to call it,and i know i can be .. but theres sometimes when i cant jus help but feel lonely, ya kno? And like its not so much lonely in the boyfriend/girlfriend way, it lonely in the way that im jus missin someone that i can jus hang out with who really understands me... yea, maybe thats what i need.