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Things are getting kinda scary, I'm addicted to cutting. I'm terrified. I try so hard to stop.. but its somethign that can't be done very easily. No one really understands and I HATE IT when people get mad at me or pity me. I also hate it when certain people offer advice cause its nothign that will help its nothing outta the ordinary its what I hear all the time.. and you really ave no idea. soo.. wtf. Bleh but its scary cause it used to be just cutting but now I'm slitting my wrist.. and I"M TERRIFIED OF MY WRIST! like whats going on.. tis so easy now.. and I knew whwne that happened I'd need to do somthing.. so tojnight I'm throwing away all my Blades! nothing has changed how I feel I'm still heavily depressed and I still need help I know that, but I'm not going to get any, I'm going to do it myself! cause I know I can. Bleh I should go to the doctors and get on meds.. but for now I'm gonna stop cutting for good.. I'm sick of letting poeple down.. Especially Kyle fuck he doesn't deserve that. Then a few others but yeah.. I gotta stop. I will.. I know I will. I jjust wish I could be happy.. then it owuld be so easy. We'll see how things go