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It's kinda strange...on Friday, Hannah, Darcy, and Zoe were here helping to clean and stuff. More like their parents were helping clean x). But anyways, I had just gotten finished hanging up with Fish and then bursting into tears afterwards (god im so pissed at him, but thats another story that i dont want to get into) and Jake came over with Kiko. Jake has always been a distant brother to me. Both him and Carey. But ive gotten closer to Carey since middle school. In elementary, I was MUCH closer to Jake. Anyways, on Friday he was there and I suddenly felt a connection towards him. We didn't talk about it, he didnt hug me, he didnt say sorry. But there was a connection, and he felt it too. His dad died back in 7th grade around the same time my mum died. I know he loved his dad, and was really close to him. But his dad got... i think its...ALS? or some acronym of the sort. and his dad just got worse and worse...and they were all expecting it when he passed, but it was still hard for him, like me. I remember at the furneral, he cried. I cried and i didnt even know the guy. Carey cried. After that me and Jake werent really as close. I never thought I'd have to experience the same thing as him, but i am. I sent an e-mail to him back then(i actually dont quite remember =P) and told him to take a break for a while. Last night he sent one to me and told me the same. He told me that he knew how i felt and itll really hurt for a while.

You know how when something bad like this happens, EVERYONE says "Im so sorry, if there is anything i can do let me know"? After while...it doesnt really mean much to you cuz you hear it so often. Well when Jake said it or wrote it, it meant a lot more than anyone elses, ya know? Theres always someone who says it and you can tell its so much more meaningful than anyone elses. Yeah so, Thanks Jake.