Five weeks on...
Well, where to start. It's been five weeks since mummy passed. How am I doing? Pretty well on the whole. I still have times where I cry and I miss her fiercely. It's strange to think it's been over five weeks since I last spoke to her, even longer when you factor in just how ill she was, when she wasn't my mummy, in them last few days.
The dynamics of my family have obviously changed. It's almost like I'm having to be the 'mummy' now. It's costing me a fortune when it comes to my sister. I find I can't say 'no' to her. Even some of the things I talk to my dad has about has changed. He's been thinking about buying another house in Manchester and he was talking to me about the finance side of things. It's strange, I'm used to being the one who was doing stuff around the house, the shopping etc but it's different now. Before it was all part of looking after mum, now I do it because it's my job in a way.
I took four weeks off work. By the end of it I was bored to tears. I've never been one for sitting around, doing nothing. I start back full time this week. It's been good getting back to work. I just can't stand the sympathy people keep giving me. I just want to be treated normal.
So, long and short of it. I'm getting better, still not 100%, but I'm getting there.
I want to thank everyone for being there for me over the last few years. I really don't think you'll ever now how truly grateful I am. Even if you didn't know what was going on, or kept in close contact, I still want to thank you.
The dynamics of my family have obviously changed. It's almost like I'm having to be the 'mummy' now. It's costing me a fortune when it comes to my sister. I find I can't say 'no' to her. Even some of the things I talk to my dad has about has changed. He's been thinking about buying another house in Manchester and he was talking to me about the finance side of things. It's strange, I'm used to being the one who was doing stuff around the house, the shopping etc but it's different now. Before it was all part of looking after mum, now I do it because it's my job in a way.
I took four weeks off work. By the end of it I was bored to tears. I've never been one for sitting around, doing nothing. I start back full time this week. It's been good getting back to work. I just can't stand the sympathy people keep giving me. I just want to be treated normal.
So, long and short of it. I'm getting better, still not 100%, but I'm getting there.
I want to thank everyone for being there for me over the last few years. I really don't think you'll ever now how truly grateful I am. Even if you didn't know what was going on, or kept in close contact, I still want to thank you.