life pretty much sucks so far
so skool starts in wat 4 days from today? i am ready.. but im sooooo not ready.. does that make sense? i mean i guess physically i can go bak and everything will be okay.. but mentally..i dunno.. its like i dont have my two best friends nemore.. george hates me so yea hes gone. and nathalie moved.. so now most of my friends are dudes.. which sucks ass cuz i can never talk about wat i want to talk about.. DO YU HAVE SOME KIND OF PHOBIA ABOUT GIRLS AND THEIR PERIODS? I MEAN GOD IF I HAVE CRAMPS GOD DAMMIT I NEED HELP!!!!!!! BUT NONE OF YU WANNA TALK ABOUT IT!! yea ok ill be okay... but yea.. i just dont wanna go bak bcuz my old shell of a life wont be there nemore.. and ill be a freakin sophmore... o and another thing that sucks about going bak, is that i hafta face logan.. and i dont want to.. hes so mad at me, that it kills me.. i mean i am like sooo sorry for wat i did.. but i dunno.. i kno he proly will never forgive me and it sucks... i just want to make my peace with him and get it over with... i dont want him mad at me...
and then yea.. ok.. here goes.. a whole paragraph about jon.. i dont care if he reads it or if neone else reads it..i need to say it!.. i need to scream it from the top of my lungs! I LOVE JONATHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want him bak so bad.. and i dont know what to do.. i get the feeling he doesnt want to bcuz he was all like oo well we will talk wen i get bak , but im not sure yet.. and all this stuff.. and im so like freaking depressed.. and i was so happy that he was coming bak from michigan on saturday.. but then now. he tells me he might be going to michigan for this skool year.. and i just broke down crying.. i cant handle that.. i need him here.. i love him so much.. and neone who knows me.. knows how much i loved george.. i love jon more than that!!!!!! and i dont think i culd take it if he moved. i mean after all this is his last year of hish school, and then hed be going to like college and i wont ever be able to seee him again and id just like die.. i need him in my life.. hes so sweet and like the best.. he was my knight in shining armor.. he protected me.. like at the bus stop.. i felt safe with him there cuz i knew nothing bad wuld happen to me.. he defended me.. he was my protector... like my fav song.. i want him to be my garage band king.. ill be his punk rock princess... ill be the girl of his dreams.. and i dont want to feel second nemore.. i want him for him.. and i want him to want me and only me.. not sum other chik i dont even know... but i just i feel like i need him at this point in my life. i dont know if he needs me.. or even wants me for that reason.. but i really do love him.. and i need him to know that.. and yea.. ok well im starting to make myself cry so imma go b4 i cant see wat im typing nemore. bye i love yu jon.. and everyone else!
and then yea.. ok.. here goes.. a whole paragraph about jon.. i dont care if he reads it or if neone else reads it..i need to say it!.. i need to scream it from the top of my lungs! I LOVE JONATHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want him bak so bad.. and i dont know what to do.. i get the feeling he doesnt want to bcuz he was all like oo well we will talk wen i get bak , but im not sure yet.. and all this stuff.. and im so like freaking depressed.. and i was so happy that he was coming bak from michigan on saturday.. but then now. he tells me he might be going to michigan for this skool year.. and i just broke down crying.. i cant handle that.. i need him here.. i love him so much.. and neone who knows me.. knows how much i loved george.. i love jon more than that!!!!!! and i dont think i culd take it if he moved. i mean after all this is his last year of hish school, and then hed be going to like college and i wont ever be able to seee him again and id just like die.. i need him in my life.. hes so sweet and like the best.. he was my knight in shining armor.. he protected me.. like at the bus stop.. i felt safe with him there cuz i knew nothing bad wuld happen to me.. he defended me.. he was my protector... like my fav song.. i want him to be my garage band king.. ill be his punk rock princess... ill be the girl of his dreams.. and i dont want to feel second nemore.. i want him for him.. and i want him to want me and only me.. not sum other chik i dont even know... but i just i feel like i need him at this point in my life. i dont know if he needs me.. or even wants me for that reason.. but i really do love him.. and i need him to know that.. and yea.. ok well im starting to make myself cry so imma go b4 i cant see wat im typing nemore. bye i love yu jon.. and everyone else!