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[snugglebunny77]

oh god.
i'm so tired.
i didn't sleep at all last night.
and i don't even mean i only slept on and off
and it doesn't feel like i got any sleep.
i mean i did not sleep... literally.
my eyes were pretty much open all night.
i had a really bad night last night.
i tried to do too much and ended up getting yelled at.
apparently i ruin every ones lives.
i push the people that love me away
by constantly being upset and crying.
i have a snotty attitude towards my family.
and i think i have ultimate power over them
because i can hold the fact that i'm depressed over their heads
and get anything that i want.
i ruin lives. make people sick. cry too much.
my mom is at home right now
with a really bad migraine
because she didn't take her headache preventatives
because she didn't want to sleep too soundly in case i decided to run away again.
what can i do to make her not think like that?
this is all my fault.
my life is on a downward spiral.
i take away everything that makes people happy.
i just want to be someone else for a day.
Happy Valentines Day.