Boy was I wrong
I thought I was better but im not. He hurts me so much. He makes me not wanna be the person I am. I just don't understand what is so wrong with me. Why doesn't n e one wanna be with me? I mean he says he likes me but yet we aren't together. I mean I would do just about n e thing for him. And I try so hard. I try the best I can, to make him happy. But nothing ever works. He said but 2 sentences to me today. And one of those things was asking for gum. I don't understand how he thinks this isn't hurting me. But he is right this isn't hurting me...its KILLING me!!!This weekend was awesome, and now its over. And now I am at the same place I was before. I thought things would be different after this weekend, it was different this weekend. But then after all of it...nothing. I just wish I could be what he wants. I wish that I wasn't me. I hate feeling this way more then n e thing. And its like no matter what I do or how hard I try. I will never be what he wants. It sucks that one of the people you care the most about...makes you feel like you are worth n e thing. I wish I could just go back to this weekend and never leave but I can't do that. So now I am stuck here and I am lonely as hell, and there is nothing I can do!!!