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Mar 28, 2005 20:38

I feel like such a bitch, back-stabber, low-life, a-hole. Why?! Why must my happiness be at the expense of others?...maybe if I were just to fade away then everyone would be happy...Lo Siento =[.

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smartshorty2029 March 28 2005, 18:47:37 UTC
..i take it you still can't get on yahoo?

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smartshorty2029 March 28 2005, 18:52:14 UTC
b/c if what i've interpereted all of this to be is true..

about what happened..
and about why you feel so bad..

then i really need to talk to you, so i can apologize.

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snssj5 March 28 2005, 19:06:30 UTC
why should YOU apologize to ME?..and no my dad is taking forever to let me back on yahoo! =[

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smartshorty2029 March 28 2005, 19:08:05 UTC
why SHOULDN'T i apologize to you?!

you're happy.
and the first thing i do is show you that i'm hurt.

how mean is that of me?
i should be happy for you.

and i'm sorry i wasn't right off.

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snssj5 March 28 2005, 19:10:29 UTC
Yeah, but the whole time I was hesitant to get this happiness back because in the back of my mind was the thought of YOU. I thought of you and your happiness, I always do this, put everyone before myself, and I always get shyt overed for it, so for once I took a risk, but still somehow I feel like total shyt. Tis' true you can't have your cake and eat it too. =/

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smartshorty2029 March 28 2005, 19:17:32 UTC
put everyone before myself

dude.. i just said the same thing while i was washing my face.

and know what has been in the back of my mind ever since you two broke up the 1st time??
"..i shouldn't have messed with this at all.
the two of them were happy.. i should have left it alone."

..i was hoping that somehow this would happen, so you two could be happy again.. and it could be like i never messed up as royally as i did.

now true.. i know i still messed up.. and that past is still there..

but someone once told me to "embrace love.." and now i think you need to hear that for yourself.

yeah, i'm hurt. i'm not going to deny that, b/c denial is stupid..
but i'll get over it.

don't feel bad for me.

embrace love

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snssj5 March 28 2005, 19:20:48 UTC
I know you think that this is a 'POPULAR' response, but IDC! lol..(/fake) for you ;-), but here it is :-D I ♥ you! I really do. *hug*

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