bad mood....
First off WOW!!! It has been along time since I have written here! I just honestly never know what I feel like sharing...but tonight I do. I am so pissed off! First off I had no idea alan had today off and then he helped Keith with his car and I knew he was going to do that but I though after work but NO!! So, instead he has been working on a car all freaking day and I literally mean all day since 10:30 this morning. It is now 12:10 and he still hasnt called to say they are done! I am actually starting to get worried because there is no telling what can happen between the two of them and a car! Secondly, I feel like I always get the short end of the stick with him. I mean I am always the last thing on his mind when he is around his friends and yes I understand that he needs friend time and that doesnt bother me but I mean not calling to tell me whether or not everything is ok. That is a little extreme. I mean a lot can happen in a day and I worry too much when they dont answer their phones but still. Some people may think I am crazy because I get this way but it honestly doesnt matter!! I am just blowing off some steam because when I talk to alan I dont want to blow up on him and then have to go on my trip alone or either us be pissed off majority of it. We both need to get away from this town and this state. I want to go where no one really knows me and I dont have to always be good. I also think that we need some just us time away from everyone and everything that distracts us. I feel like we are drifting apart and I dont want that because I am soo in love with him and I want us to stay like we have been but anyway I am sure you are tired of reading this so I will stop but I just needed to blow off some steam!!