I call tonight the beginning of the end.
Tonight I asked for a cigarette from Casey. I had previously quit, but recent events really warranted one. It’s fair to say I’m not going to class tomorrow, but I’m just too heartbroken to care. In reality, many possibilities lie before me, but the likelihood determines my mood currently… Next to tears here right now. That never happens. This obviously means a lot to me. Fuck. Why the hell am I so timid with my feelings. I’d lost my family and friends before, now I’ve lost the one thing I held close to my heart. Just fuck it all. FUCK IT.