Feb 21, 2006 00:27
So I'm having a serious mental break down. I am in a situation and I don't know what to do. John is an amazing guy. Better than the jerks I usually date. He's funny and nice and sincere... but I just don't have any feelings for him anymore. I get bored so easily, I mean heck lets look at my track record... I don't know what's wrong with me. I definitely think that part of it is that I feel like he wants more than I am willing to offer. I am just not in a place right now where I want to have a relationship. I just had a five month relationship, not counting the month before we were actually together, and while that was already a while ago, I just am not in a place right now where I want that. He is such a wonderful person and I feel so terrible… I don’t know what to do. I mean I can’t force myself to have feelings that I don’t feel, but I don’t want to hurt his feelings either. The worst part is that I don’t even know how to go about this situation because it’s not like we are dating and I can break-up with him. I don’t want to say “Hey, I don’t like you” because he’s a great guy and I want to be his friend, but everyone hates the “Lets just be friends” line. The sad thing is that even if I did still have feelings for him he lives so far away that I wouldn’t keep it anyway… Long distance would never work for me, I wouldn’t be faithful and I am honest enough with myself to admit that. On top of that I am just so busy all the time. If I’m not working I’m at school, and if I’m home I’m probably studying, and if none of the three are occurring I’m with the Sloots… and lets face it, no one cuts in on my girl time… no one. I guess I have to talk to him, I just don’t know what to do, or how to do it, or what to say… anyone have any advice?