I jerked myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the strain, the only thing thats real.

[snoytold]

This whole studying for the GED tests isn't going so well. I'm too fucking stupid to figure out how to do division. There is no way I could pass the Mathematics test. I need some help. My brother is coming to visit for Christmas in a week or so, hopefully he can help me. He's only going to be here for four days. I'll have to make the most of our time. Yeah, anyway...

It's been a week since the last time I smoked, I think. I remember when I used to smoke pot, at the most, once a week. Where has my life gone? I have no life.

Yarg...