only broken hearted loser you'll ever need
well i worked 10hours yesterday and 10 today and slept about 2 hours in b/w. but at least the awesome 3hr game of capture the flag at 2am rocked! i did wipe out 2x so i'm super sore and stiff and whatnot. at least it was on my right side as opposed to the left side where my bad knee is b/c my right leg and arm are very hard to move today esp after doing work to get camp ready all day after 2 falls and no sleep. but at least they gave us little water guns this year! haha it's awesome.
i also still have health insurance which totally rocks!
now on to the crap that consumes my life currently...
i know i haven't posted in forever but i really need a release right now other than what i've been trying b/c it doesn't seem to be working.
life really bites at the moment. nothing seems to be going right and just when i think things can't get worse they blow up even more. i feel like i have no control and i don't even know what i'll be doing or where i'll be next week! my heart is breaking for a million reasons and i think i'm letting someone start to fix it, not even the person i was origionally going to let try. he's been through a lot in the past year so maybe that's why i'm letting him. i don't even have to talk about stuff he just knows when i'm upset and helps. it's unfortunately still not the person i want it to be though but who knows what's going to happen. nothing worth anything comes easily is what i have to keep telling myself. i really just want something to go right, no i need something to go right. i have done a few things over the past 2.5 weeks i'm not proud of but oh well mistakes happen.
i also still have health insurance which totally rocks!
now on to the crap that consumes my life currently...
i know i haven't posted in forever but i really need a release right now other than what i've been trying b/c it doesn't seem to be working.
life really bites at the moment. nothing seems to be going right and just when i think things can't get worse they blow up even more. i feel like i have no control and i don't even know what i'll be doing or where i'll be next week! my heart is breaking for a million reasons and i think i'm letting someone start to fix it, not even the person i was origionally going to let try. he's been through a lot in the past year so maybe that's why i'm letting him. i don't even have to talk about stuff he just knows when i'm upset and helps. it's unfortunately still not the person i want it to be though but who knows what's going to happen. nothing worth anything comes easily is what i have to keep telling myself. i really just want something to go right, no i need something to go right. i have done a few things over the past 2.5 weeks i'm not proud of but oh well mistakes happen.