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Alright folks..this is gonna be a long one. I won't be offended if you skip the entire thing.
Sat night Nate and I decided to take a break. yup. i won't bore anyone with the details, but it has been pretty rough. It really astonishes me how quickly some things change in a relationship and how you think you know someone and just get blown away with things they can say. It hurts...but I have let myself get hurt instead of standing up like i usually do. fuck that..no more.
So that happens Sat night and I am a mess for the next 12 hours..then I go to work at shitty Starbucks and fake smile to everyone for 8 hours. I come home and drink a few glasses of vino and take a bath. On the way out of the bathroom i drop my bra in the toilet (should have put the seat down allie). Then I get to my room only to discover my cat has puked on my only clean PJ pants and sweatshirt. Fuck. So I put on my PJ shorts and a dirty smelly sweatshirt and check my e-mail before bed. This is what I found:
"Thanks so much for flying all the way out for the job interview. I
can't tell you how much that meant. I was really happy to see you
apply for the job. Your are one of my favorites from your class. I
hate to say we will not be hiring you at this time. You were number 4
on the list and with only 3 jobs to fill, well... you do the math. I
really liked the way you interviewed. Unfortunatly it is not totally
my decision. I would like to keep you resume on file because we might
be hiring again in the future. I think you have sooo much potential in
this field. Your passion is genuine.
Thanks again for coming out, it was really great to see you again."
So I will not be moving to Cali anytime soon, I will remain at the Zoo and work alongside my sorta "ex" and suffer through the remaining winter and scorching summer in Boston.
This entry has been a real downer. What can I say...something good better happen, and happen soon. (well america's next top model is on tonight, thats one good thing. my luck, a fucking red sox practice game will be on instead.)
Bleh..
EDIT>>>>>>>> 3-24-04
So that was short and painful...but words and tears were exchanged and Nate and I are going to give our relationship another try....that was the most emotional 2 hours i've ever had
Sat night Nate and I decided to take a break. yup. i won't bore anyone with the details, but it has been pretty rough. It really astonishes me how quickly some things change in a relationship and how you think you know someone and just get blown away with things they can say. It hurts...but I have let myself get hurt instead of standing up like i usually do. fuck that..no more.
So that happens Sat night and I am a mess for the next 12 hours..then I go to work at shitty Starbucks and fake smile to everyone for 8 hours. I come home and drink a few glasses of vino and take a bath. On the way out of the bathroom i drop my bra in the toilet (should have put the seat down allie). Then I get to my room only to discover my cat has puked on my only clean PJ pants and sweatshirt. Fuck. So I put on my PJ shorts and a dirty smelly sweatshirt and check my e-mail before bed. This is what I found:
"Thanks so much for flying all the way out for the job interview. I
can't tell you how much that meant. I was really happy to see you
apply for the job. Your are one of my favorites from your class. I
hate to say we will not be hiring you at this time. You were number 4
on the list and with only 3 jobs to fill, well... you do the math. I
really liked the way you interviewed. Unfortunatly it is not totally
my decision. I would like to keep you resume on file because we might
be hiring again in the future. I think you have sooo much potential in
this field. Your passion is genuine.
Thanks again for coming out, it was really great to see you again."
So I will not be moving to Cali anytime soon, I will remain at the Zoo and work alongside my sorta "ex" and suffer through the remaining winter and scorching summer in Boston.
This entry has been a real downer. What can I say...something good better happen, and happen soon. (well america's next top model is on tonight, thats one good thing. my luck, a fucking red sox practice game will be on instead.)
Bleh..
EDIT>>>>>>>> 3-24-04
So that was short and painful...but words and tears were exchanged and Nate and I are going to give our relationship another try....that was the most emotional 2 hours i've ever had