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Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been trying to deal with my bf. See... shit. Well. I think Valentine's Day might tear more people apart than it brings together. My bf sort of proposed to me on Val day. He didn't have a ring yet but he got down on one knee, said all the words, and I just kind of froze up.
I had no idea what to do. I love him, I really do. But I'm not ready for all that. I told him I needed time, and he was completely crushed. But I couldn't say yes to him knowing I was conflicted. Right? I'm not ready for marriage and babies and settling down. I love him and he might be the one for me but I don't know yet.
And now he's still waiting to hear from me and I don't know what to do. Why couldn't we just keep on as we have been? We don't even live together. I dont know what to do.
I had no idea what to do. I love him, I really do. But I'm not ready for all that. I told him I needed time, and he was completely crushed. But I couldn't say yes to him knowing I was conflicted. Right? I'm not ready for marriage and babies and settling down. I love him and he might be the one for me but I don't know yet.
And now he's still waiting to hear from me and I don't know what to do. Why couldn't we just keep on as we have been? We don't even live together. I dont know what to do.