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Well its been a couple weeks againg. This is the first post with the new layout thats pretty cool. (thanks to christina for that!) The other day i though "hey a lot of live journals and other things like that are really depressing. It seems that whenever you read somebodies journal for the first time it seems like you see a new side of them, and most often a depressed/unhappy side. I thought about this after someone told me that in all my posts my mood was bumemd out or pissed off or something. Then i realized that these kinda jounals dont really accurately portray ppls characters. I know for me im not always angry or pissed off or depressed. But when i am, i write about it in my journal. I realized that its like this with other ppl. My posts are mainly really bad days and really good days. It makes sense, why would i wanna write about a day that i had that was normal even if it was a happy day or w/e. So it makes way more sense becuse before all these ppl that seemed to be happy in real life seemed depressed on their journal.
So i guess the point is dont take ppls online journals with more than a grain of salt. Like in the past week for me its been great, school has been almost fun, ive been snowboarding a lot and nothing bad has really happenned. Life has been very smooth so i felt no need to write about it. But tuesday, the day before a rail competeition at wachusett, i feel pretty hard on a rail and bruised my hip. I didnt "officially bruse the bone" i just fell on it and now it hurts. In the last two days its been getting better but it still is bad enough that i might not be able to snowboard this weekend.
Anyway, with this event, i got kinda bummed out and today decided to write about it in my journal and then realized that this is a perfect example of what i was thinking about a few days ago. So I decided to write about that first insted of writing about stuff that happenned. This bummed me out for a while but like its not enough to make me depressed. Because i think that there have been times when it may seem like i am or when i have felt like I am, but really I dont think i even know the meaning of depression compaired to the things that other people are going through. I really shouldn't feel bad just because of one thing when the truth is life is actually pretty good right now. My birthday is next wednesday and it seems like its coming up really fast. I have just started making plans but w/e things are started to come together so im not really worried about it.
School isnt bad right now. In one of my classes we are reading a book that i actually like. Its called Reservation Blues. Im actaully reading it and contributing to class descussions. I think im gonna get a good grade in this class becuase ive been really active in class and i've been getting good grades on my papers. The only thing that sucks is that the teacher doesnt let me sit next to some of my freinds cus she thinks we goof off. And me might sort of but its not anything that really desrupts the class. I feel way more confident when im sitting with my freinds and when im confident I tend to talk way more in class which i think would help the class more so than disrupting it. I mean we may talk a bit and laught about stuff that we say to one another but it doesnt disrupt class. And when im by myself and not adding to the descussion it hurts the class more then a few short side conversations which most of the time have to do with the book in the first place. Its kinda silly but w/e we still get away with it and she hasnt made a big deal yet
Ok it feels like im just going on and on about nothing and saying the same thing over and over so im just gonna stop now. Wow this has probalby been both my longest and mose boring post ever! haha
peace, -Dan.
So i guess the point is dont take ppls online journals with more than a grain of salt. Like in the past week for me its been great, school has been almost fun, ive been snowboarding a lot and nothing bad has really happenned. Life has been very smooth so i felt no need to write about it. But tuesday, the day before a rail competeition at wachusett, i feel pretty hard on a rail and bruised my hip. I didnt "officially bruse the bone" i just fell on it and now it hurts. In the last two days its been getting better but it still is bad enough that i might not be able to snowboard this weekend.
Anyway, with this event, i got kinda bummed out and today decided to write about it in my journal and then realized that this is a perfect example of what i was thinking about a few days ago. So I decided to write about that first insted of writing about stuff that happenned. This bummed me out for a while but like its not enough to make me depressed. Because i think that there have been times when it may seem like i am or when i have felt like I am, but really I dont think i even know the meaning of depression compaired to the things that other people are going through. I really shouldn't feel bad just because of one thing when the truth is life is actually pretty good right now. My birthday is next wednesday and it seems like its coming up really fast. I have just started making plans but w/e things are started to come together so im not really worried about it.
School isnt bad right now. In one of my classes we are reading a book that i actually like. Its called Reservation Blues. Im actaully reading it and contributing to class descussions. I think im gonna get a good grade in this class becuase ive been really active in class and i've been getting good grades on my papers. The only thing that sucks is that the teacher doesnt let me sit next to some of my freinds cus she thinks we goof off. And me might sort of but its not anything that really desrupts the class. I feel way more confident when im sitting with my freinds and when im confident I tend to talk way more in class which i think would help the class more so than disrupting it. I mean we may talk a bit and laught about stuff that we say to one another but it doesnt disrupt class. And when im by myself and not adding to the descussion it hurts the class more then a few short side conversations which most of the time have to do with the book in the first place. Its kinda silly but w/e we still get away with it and she hasnt made a big deal yet
Ok it feels like im just going on and on about nothing and saying the same thing over and over so im just gonna stop now. Wow this has probalby been both my longest and mose boring post ever! haha
peace, -Dan.