i sit alone, sadly alone
i sit here, alone, and sad. i dont really know whats going on right now. im miles away from everything i know, and no way to operate any where else. i was usless in narragansett... just laying around and walking everywhere, probably annoying billy. not really but sometimes i felt like i was. and then i just cant keep thinking about all this shit in the past, and jess, god what a bitch, like she says she been ignoring me but who started the cat fight? it was her going and leaving uncessarilaly mean comments on shit that just hurts. does she have any idea what something like that does to a person? obviously not, and i mean obviously you can't leave me alone either, why are you even reading my journal if you hate me so much. i mean it was innocent fun that went bad. she acts like i intentionally hit her dog or somehting. i mean come on now, it was a drunken accident, i almost killed myself going the wrong way on the highway, obviously i was beyond wasted. but im not defending my actions, she has the right to be pissed, its really shitty what i did when all they were trying to do was stop me from driving and killing myself and possibly someone else, but when your that drunk and angry for whatever reason. then its a bad combanation. no one was going to stop me from driving that night, that god someone was looking out for me while i was driving though. i am so lucky that i didnt kill myself and several other innocent bystandards in the process..
but anyways, im just sitting around at my sister house so far away from anything i know, my best friend only a few hours away. and i just feel like death. i feel like i would just love to curl up and die. but i cant say such things because it makes people talk. and im not gonna go and get all stupid with a razor or anything. i made a promise and i intend to keep it. regaurdless... i need a cigarette and this is all very random and ill write again later... bye for now
always and forever,
meg
(mab)
but anyways, im just sitting around at my sister house so far away from anything i know, my best friend only a few hours away. and i just feel like death. i feel like i would just love to curl up and die. but i cant say such things because it makes people talk. and im not gonna go and get all stupid with a razor or anything. i made a promise and i intend to keep it. regaurdless... i need a cigarette and this is all very random and ill write again later... bye for now
always and forever,
meg
(mab)