Jul 12, 2006 23:25
dun da dun....
oh how i miss my snowboarding escape. I was gonna slide away to the mountains. It makes avoiding school easier and the other Chris and I hanging out easier for not happening if I am gone. It is so strange to hear someone say on the other end of hte phone: " I just want you to like me. "
I mean... I am just one Sarah Rugh. I am sure there a ten gabillion girls on this planet.... Why me? I can't help it that I am human and I need space. It just doesn't seem healthy to me to be hanging out with this dude every week when I miss my girl friends. When I don't even know.... shit... I dunno. I guess it is just hard cause I don't want to develop feelings for him and quite honestly that is just hard... I have freaking ovaries and they make me wanna develop feelings and have the best sex of my life... I guess that ain't gonna happen tho.... so fuck I dunno...
I guess I might want to hang out and be friends, but I don't think I know how. Hence the reason Jason Gilbert and I are not tight homies since the break up, Wesley and I can't muster up a phone conversation that might be meaningfull or make sence to save our lives, and other Wes well he wants to talk to me but I just don't see the point. Maybe I am selfish and just don't want to do things that don't benifit me... What is so bad about that though? I also don't want to do things that harm me and I end up doing really stupid stuff when I hang out with people I want to sleep with... I do. That is why I don't hang out with people I want to sleep with.
Moral of the story: I like French music and don't like bagels.