Wasting time as usual
Okay update first on computer. All fixed. Had to reinstall Windows. Good thing is I spent HOURs backing up everything--- that's right, I got onto the desktop to get the files! My photos are all safe on CDs and I am very relieved. My bookmarks are gone but oh well. Apparently I'm smarter than the technicians of Dell, or they don't do as much as they can before saying "erase and reinstall windows." I told them let's try making a second partition and reinstalling another windows on there. So he told me to create a different windows file and we installed it there! :) It's so good to be on a fast computer again ^^ My dad's laptop sufficed but damn, it's 10 years old and is obviously more reliable, but... it's still slow.
So I wanted to write today because I was just reading a Deviantart journal of a very old ex-friend of mine named Blaze. His whole online avatar is Blaze Hedgehog. He's an avid fan of Sonic the Hedgehog. Well I watched a video he made for a contest and it was amazing. It annoys me that I still wish I could IM him now and start talking to him. It annoys me how deeply attached I am to him. That when I found him on Deviantart, I can't bring myself to delete him. Even though he ignores my exsistance. And believe me I did try to contact him (I'm tempted to email him with a different email faking wanting him to draw me something. Money talks and he won't ignore an email that is the prospect of money.) I even commented on his Deviant. He ignored it. Blantly. I emailed him, nothing.
The story goes back to the Golden Age of Cyb-- er wrong thing --- Sailor Moon. There was an AOL private room called "sailormoon." It was around 98. Long story short, met up with Blaze, we clicked and dubbed each other AOL brother and sister. I kid you not, we stayed on all night sometimes just talking about anything and everything. It was wonderful. Then he got a real girlfriend and turned into-- I don't even know. He was constantly depressed that he couldn't see her. It just didn't make any sense at all. And he told me that he was more concerned for her. I disappeared for a few months (because I had broken up with someone I cared for - yeah shut up it was an aol b/f) because I was pretty disheartened by Blaze's treatment and the ex's stupidity. When I came back Blaze was still acting strange and still obsessed with his new g/f. I tried to talk to him like old times but he totally was not interested. Then out of the blue, he disappeared. I always assumed he put me on block because he never came back.
About a year ago I was searching him and found him on Deviant. He so seems himself again. Obsessed with Sonic, being geeky about games, and his corny sense of humor seems to have returned. Though he doesn't want any part of me. Why do I care? It's been 6 years since that whole thing. I don't even personally know this guy, though I feel like I have met him. Maybe it's because he's so similar to Kenny? Maybe it's because we were so close. I always find it disheartening when a person that was so close to me now doesn't even think about me. I don't know for sure. I mean in one of the pictures he drew he mentioned me (TT was my name from my screen name back then TTigerStar). Maybe it's because he was one of the only people I ever met online that I could just talk to forever. All good things come to an end, Blaze doesn't want any part of that sailormoon time, I guess. For now, I can see him and I can remember that special bond we once had. Though honestly, I wish I could just forget him.
So I wanted to write today because I was just reading a Deviantart journal of a very old ex-friend of mine named Blaze. His whole online avatar is Blaze Hedgehog. He's an avid fan of Sonic the Hedgehog. Well I watched a video he made for a contest and it was amazing. It annoys me that I still wish I could IM him now and start talking to him. It annoys me how deeply attached I am to him. That when I found him on Deviantart, I can't bring myself to delete him. Even though he ignores my exsistance. And believe me I did try to contact him (I'm tempted to email him with a different email faking wanting him to draw me something. Money talks and he won't ignore an email that is the prospect of money.) I even commented on his Deviant. He ignored it. Blantly. I emailed him, nothing.
The story goes back to the Golden Age of Cyb-- er wrong thing --- Sailor Moon. There was an AOL private room called "sailormoon." It was around 98. Long story short, met up with Blaze, we clicked and dubbed each other AOL brother and sister. I kid you not, we stayed on all night sometimes just talking about anything and everything. It was wonderful. Then he got a real girlfriend and turned into-- I don't even know. He was constantly depressed that he couldn't see her. It just didn't make any sense at all. And he told me that he was more concerned for her. I disappeared for a few months (because I had broken up with someone I cared for - yeah shut up it was an aol b/f) because I was pretty disheartened by Blaze's treatment and the ex's stupidity. When I came back Blaze was still acting strange and still obsessed with his new g/f. I tried to talk to him like old times but he totally was not interested. Then out of the blue, he disappeared. I always assumed he put me on block because he never came back.
About a year ago I was searching him and found him on Deviant. He so seems himself again. Obsessed with Sonic, being geeky about games, and his corny sense of humor seems to have returned. Though he doesn't want any part of me. Why do I care? It's been 6 years since that whole thing. I don't even personally know this guy, though I feel like I have met him. Maybe it's because he's so similar to Kenny? Maybe it's because we were so close. I always find it disheartening when a person that was so close to me now doesn't even think about me. I don't know for sure. I mean in one of the pictures he drew he mentioned me (TT was my name from my screen name back then TTigerStar). Maybe it's because he was one of the only people I ever met online that I could just talk to forever. All good things come to an end, Blaze doesn't want any part of that sailormoon time, I guess. For now, I can see him and I can remember that special bond we once had. Though honestly, I wish I could just forget him.